Good morning Bloggets. It’s pouring with rain and Hub has
just left the building. Haha. Really I am shocked, no way I would go out in
that but he is determined that he is going to qualify tomorrow and the route he
will do he has only done once until today so he needs the practice. With his
almost white dog and the rain, it’s not going to be good. As for his poor
trainer? Bless her, she never complains. I will have a nice warm cup of coffee
for her on her return. I can tell you that the Little Fella is doing so well. Tomorrow
I hope they both will qualify and I hope my Son will be able to put a picture
on here, but nailing him down to do anything for more than one minute? May be a
challenge.
Our Son has a long drive home from work today in this
dangerous weather too. His boss has asked him to stay on another month but teen
said no. At first it was meant to be for two months that turned into three now
they want four? Well, it’s already cost him his insurance. He went over the
five thousand miles he was allowed to go. He has one now that allows six thousand
and he is almost at that already. Then what will he do? I hope scrap his car and just live local until
he can afford a newer car. One that isn’t a death trap. He will work across our
road almost when he is finished his training but his boss wants him there where
he is now, I think full time to take over the roll he has been training for. If
not for the distance, then he would, but two hours driving per day for a kid is
too much especially when like today he had to be up at five and won’t be home
until half five. He has a long shift today. He hasn’t had a holiday since July.
But he is due one next week. Not sure how much is going to be a break for him
though as he has to go up north. His father has told him what to buy him for
Christmas so he has to take that. And it is going to cost teen £100, plus the
petrol to get there and back. Means all this week he is working for nothing.
Gosh, we almost moved to Australia some years ago. We were
three weeks off going. Long story short, we stayed to the huge disappointment of
teen and myself. Mind you, if we had have gone there, we wouldn’t have moved
here and I love it here. I can’t believe it, this will be our forth Christmas
in our house. I thought the day we left Northumberland I would never feel at
home, but I do here, as at home as one can after a childhood at boarding
school.
Out of the small group of friends from our school days, we
are close friends or is that, allies? There are six of us who see each other regularly
and I would say that all but perhaps one will be friends for life.
So Northumberland v Australia? Ha, we don’t have seven of
the most dangerous creatures that are seven out of ten in Northumberland,
unlike Au, but the change for us all was welcoming. Not sure how teen would
have seen his Father though. It would have been a scary time but we would have
made friends and learned how to adapt to the new lifestyle. The size of the
country did put me in fear. Especially as Hub was to cover the whole of
Australia with his job. He had a gut instinct and three weeks before moving
there he pulled the plug. Gosh he got some stick from Teen and myself. Now on
reflection, do I wish we had still gone? Well, if we had we wouldn’t have moved
here and I would not have made such lovely friends also we wouldn’t see our
besties Trix Like and Hanz, JB and Trace and this would have been awful, but
teen wouldn’t have met the woman from hell of a girlfriend when he was fifteen
until now. Once again she is trying to get close as she knows she made a huge
error in her summer decisions.
Sometimes I would love it if we could sit back and watch
like a parallel screen of another life. So it’s us still but the decision we
didn’t take has been taken by us but our double if you know what I mean? So now
I would watch the screen and listen to my voice talking about what it is like
living in Australia. I would introduce you to my new friends if I had made any
that is, but I’m sure we would as they are a friendly bunch. As for Olga in Russia, hmm. That is an
interesting one. As her and I would still be talking though we wouldn’t see each
other the same. I would have still had the image of her and her Son who I still
love and always will. The image I learned about last year.
Oh, my brother and family well, we wouldn’t be in touch like
we are now. Teen would he be working if so doing what? Would he have been eaten
by a shark? I must say, our innocent stunning coasts in the north east are
bitter cold, but there were no summer threats of swimming there.
Now my brother in law and his partner are moving out there,
what will happen? Will we ever see them again? It is at the other end of the
world. I can’t even imagine travelling so far by aeroplane when we went to
America, I thought I would die being up in the air so long, but there was such
a pleasure at the other end waiting. Our dear Yam and DD. With whom they
introduced us to and the life they showed us has had a huge effect on our lives
and will forever.
Talking with teen he said he will never ever forget his time
in America because of Yam and DD.
Because of his time with Chuck and on the ranch. That family feeling we
will never forget. Making memories that will last forever was so special and I
don’t even think they relies just what an impact they had on our lives. And will
have forever.
If I hadn’t have been reunited with Hub thanks to Jan who
organised the reunion, and for sure a divine intervention, we wouldn’t have got
to America. Not to be introduced to such special people. Funny how our lives
can just be switched on and off like the TV. Are we the entertainment for aliens?
If so, what channel am I? Hehehe. Don’t answer? Cheeky?
It’s all about what corner to take and when. I do believe
our lives are map out for us. Gosh, until seven years ago, whoever was in charge
of my map was a pretty cruel person or thing. I had forty years of hell. Forty
years of fear feeling alone and lost though I had such love from my parents. I
spent little time with them as was away at a very horrid school and on my holidays
spent time abroad in hospitals. Just searching for that cure for my eyesight.
There is another channel you see. If I didn’t go to Russia
for all of those years, I wouldn’t have met some amazingly famous people including
our queen and a spiritual God in my opinion. That is Muhammad Ali and so many
other famous people who I will always remember. I had some incredible times
memories things that just shouldn’t have happened to little normal me… But,
when it comes to normal life, normal living, gosh, well, I would have gone to
the very good school where only brilliant exam results were expected of the
pupils, this would have lead me onto University and a hopeful job. Or a career.
A totally different me I guess. Gosh what would I have been like? I think I would
have gone down the road of psychology. So I would hope to help others, whereas
now? I need the help haha haha. I could be a case study. I tell you when I did
my counselling course; most of the students did need help. I guess that makes a
great counsellor, if one has had a challenging life? Whereas telling that to
those teaching you how to counsel, won’t agree. They like you to have a clear
mind. I can see both ways. How can one empathise when one hasn’t lived? And how
can the counsellor be opening minded if they are faced with a situation similar
to theirs? Hmm.
I can always look back and say what if, but it’s good to
look forward and ask when?
I guess you never know your future. You can plan but your
plan isn’t in your control. You can steer your car but the wheels may have other
ideas.
I don’t know what has got into me this week. I’m so rambling
I just hope I don’t lose my Bloggets by doing so? Tomorrow’s homework is to go
back to shorter blogs and strait to the point. I guess the past few days have
been an inside to my mind. A very odd place to be. A true case study for those
who are intrigued by the mind for sure.
The short an yet what seemed to be forever six months when I
lost my eyesight then my Dad then my Mum, I went a little crazy. Who wouldn’t?
I was scared out of my brain. I had my baby to look after. How was I as a newly
blinded person to do this? I couldn’t see how to do his bottles to measure them
and I had no one to help. To change nappies? It was a nightmare. As well as
that I had Charles Bonnet syndrome and that was so frightening. But I didn’t
understand it I had never heard of it at the time. When you know you are blind, you have your
one year old child in your arms and a man steps out in front of you? Oh, never
ever will I forget those days.
I didn’t have anyone to talk with. I didn’t have the internet.
It was a few years after the most shocking day of my life when I learned of
something that scrambled my mind and always will. Those days were hell. And now? I am moving on though scarred. People say
scars heal now days. I think they may be there forever but, I’m learning to
deal with the pain of them. And two years later, yet more damaging pain, but
now, again, all is calm as far as tragedy but it leaves you waiting for it to
happen. Just waiting. How to be positive? Well, I count my blessings now. I
have a husband who loves me and cares and a Son I adore as well as great friends
and my close family. I can step out of that front door though some days are
more difficult than others.
Gosh, said too much again. One thing I can tell you. Through
these blogs I receive some amazing emails and messages in other ways. One
Blogget I am so proud of right now I won’t say his name but he will know who he
is. I offered him some advice and I never thought he would take any notice. Not
only he did that but he did so much more. I hope he can maintain his wings.
Keep flying my bird of India.
Right, said too much gone too far time to go and before I
do, a funny thing I read today online. Here it is.
The quickest way to double your money is to fold it over and
put it in your pocket.
No comments:
Post a Comment