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Tuesday 30 April 2019

NO NEED FOR EGGS BY FIONA CUMMINGS


I’m really dreading tomorrow as my love is going away overnight and I hate that. I miss him so much. The house is so quiet and empty without him here. I like my little unit of Hub, Son and two dogs. I’m so happy when they are all home. Contentment. Sometimes I wish I had more children when I was younger. But I think my maker had different ideas. Who knows, may be my other children would have sight problems if they were unfortunate to get RP passed to them. It’s bad enough for me to know that my Son and future grandchildren will pass the disease on to their children or at least all be carriers. And because I’m the first person in my family I think to have this eye condition, I guess I am the root and planted the seeds. Having said that, if the father of your children doesn’t have the same gene, then the children will be carriers rather than actually have Retinitis Pigmentosa. Still I fear if my Son’s eyes are totally OK. I wished I had got him checked out when he was a child. But I wasn’t in the right place so no good wishing for something that I now have no control over.

 

If my Sons children are born with sight problems, then me and their Granddad will be the best people to support those little ones. Encourage and support we will too!

 

Speaking with a lovely lady today how she is so afraid to go blind as she too has RP, well, reading in between the lines, she is doing a great preparation job. The most common thing that people say to me is I couldn’t be blind… Well some news, if you have no choice, there is no choice really unless you end your life and think about what you may miss in your future if you do that and believe me, I have been in that place where life wasn’t worth living. The pure fear wasn’t worth the pain and torture but I say to everyone now, just be prepared. Then they may say I wouldn’t’ know where to start, well, talking with this lovely today, she said a few things to me and I quoted her, just to let her realise, how much she actually is prepared. She said things to me that made me realise that she already has a grip of what it’s like not to have sight. We were talking over the internet and my dogs were in the background. She told me she could hear them shaking their heads as the way their bells on their collars were ringing. Yep, she was correct as they were ragging their toys. She also said that she could hear their claws on the floor. Again right, my floors are wood. So, she was hearing things. Without thinking about how she may, have to be in the future, using senses that people who are sighted just don’t use, it’s not like we hear better we don’t, that’s a myth. We just have to listen rather than looking, so because we can’t see, we concentrate more on our hearing. When we enter a room, we may smell things before our sighted companions, only because when I’m in our shopping centre, I can smell the bakers for example, or the florist. So, it teaches us to home in on our other senses. We see with our ears and nose. Smile.

 

My Son is cooking. Bless him, he loves to cook. I have told him to leave my kitchen as he found it…  

He may be in there for a while.

 

I received an email from someone who wanted to know what I used to bind food with, or an egg substitute. Here is a link


 

Chat more tomorrow Bloggets, smile and those near you will pass it on.

 

 

STATS


Today we have had views/reads from United Arab Emirates, United States, Cambodia, Finland, United Kingdom, Germany, Australia, France, Ukraine, and South Africa.

Total stats for the top ten countries are as follows.

UK, 138,652

US, 124,646

Russia, 10,930

Canada, 10,151

Germany, 7,858

Australia, 7,836

Ukraine, 7,770

France, 2,771

South Africa, 1975

Ireland, 1,615

Total reads 363,045

Thank you to all the countries who visit.

 

 

DIARY OF POUNDS OF SOAP BY FIONA CUMMINGS


Good morning Bloggets. It’s a lovely day but with a threat of rain, I hope it waits until I get my washing all dry as I’m going to hang it out as soon as the machine finishes. Is it a British thing, to hang ones washing outside? I doubt many young people in the UK will do that now days as its so much easier to put them in the dryer. Well, I do in winter, but in nice weather, I like to hang them outside on the washing line. It’s therapeutic. Yep, I’m odd.

 

Like I love to clean my windows in the summer. Outside, not in, I hate doing inside. Hahaha. See I’m not the kind to just sit and do nothing in the garden. I feel too guilty so I have to keep moving. So, it’s one way to be in the sun, without the guilt factor!

 

Hub has six hours travel today and tomorrow another load of travel, I think four hours one way as he’s staying overnight tomorrow, but he’s home tonight though it won’t be until later on.

 

His dinner is prepared. As is Boy Wonders. Dish washer emptied and refilled. I have washed all the kitchen down. Done the floors and dusted.  Very domesticated Fi. I have a speech to write this afternoon and then must dash out to the shop I normally like to do that first thing, but today work took over.

 

In the distance I can hear the monkeys in the zoo and the odd bird mixing with the traffic. Oh, my friend sent me a recording of her neighbourhood last night, it’s so peaceful. This is England, meant to be quaint narrow streets with chocolate box houses, horse and carts, milk floats and barrows selling flowers. Haha, oh, am I generations too late for that?

 

My biscuit man is due tonight. Yep, he sells biscuits. In other countries may be known as cookies.  Heart attacks delivered to our doors. But I am good and only have one per day, whereas Hub, oh my, not sure what happened to his diet. He lost 11 lbs in three weeks. Since then, I reccon he’s gained 15. In two weeks.

 

But I can’t talk. Though I’m walking so much more this year. Like 12 miles a couple of weekends ago, only three this weekend but ten a few weekends ago. I’m not losing a single lb. in fact I had, note, had, put on 4 lbs, but weighed myself this morning and on the third attempt, it was confirmed I had lost 3 lbs. my weighed goes up and down like a lift-elevator.

I cleaned that one up!

 

I wish I could lose a pound for every time my talking scales said to me. “Error””

Yep, that’s me one big mistake.

 

There is a drama I have totally avoided all of my life. It’s a drama that every single person I know, loves. Not me. Never. Not ever. I have tried to watch it as how can I possibly be the only person in Britain not to enjoy such a drama? So, I have sat through the terrible acting and corny storylines. I have tried to endure the painful soap. I can’t get into it, well, couldn’t.

 

Oh, my goodness. I’m almost ashamed to admit to being addicted to this soap. I haven’t told a single soul. It’s all my friends’ fault. A couple of months ago, yes, eight weeks, she started to tell me about a storyline in the show. It sounded really interesting. But no, it couldn’t be, surely? Dare I try again? I just am so interested in psychology, people’s minds. And this was a mind game for sure. Well I firstly sat through the start of it bored and prepared to switch it off after ten minutes. But I was shocked in how much the actors had improved. Well the men. the women all but a couple, are the same as I remembered.  Dreadful. But the story even seemed really good. Gosh, no, was I watching the same soap? Yep, as you can’t misinterpret the tune as it’s been the same for 59 years, yes Bloggets that is how old this soap is.

 

The storyline at the moment is so sad, but normally it’s quite light humoured. But right now, the guy who is themed is such a brilliant actor and my heart actually aches for him. Yes, that is how much I’m now involved in this soap that I never would sit through because of the dreadful story and acting.

 Not sure what has happened, have the actors improved, do they have new writers? Or, am I getting old?

Don’t answer that…

 

But I do wonder.

 

I mean, we even record it now and when Shamrock came around last night, we were watching it, so paused it not to miss any. Tragic isn’t it? Hahahaha. Oh goodness, what soap is it? I feel like I’m about to confess to a Priest.

Coronation Street!

*HIDES BEHIND SOFA IN SHAME! *

In 1987, Christmas day Cori, had the highest viewings ever in the UK at a whopping 27,000,000

On average I think it gets about 8 million per episode and it’s on three nights per week on what I call our relaxed channel of ITV.  I mean it’s popular. And now I’m among the Cori fans.

Did I say that?

*One reaches for the remote control and switches on BBC 2…. *

  

 

Monday 29 April 2019

LONG MAY WINTER SLEEP #PoetryByFionaCummings


LONG MAY WINTER SLEEP

BY FIONA CUMMINGS

 

A beautiful time of the year

Spring is finally here

This season takes forever to come

Excitement in the air full of fun

The sun shines through a watery sky

Shrubs start to flower for a multi coloured butterfly

The fragrances pass me by

As I walk along

The bird song

Peace is all around

Gone are the puddles on the ground

A new start

Love in my heart

Trotting along is a horse and cart

In the dark green pasture’s cows thrive

Days like this it’s great to be alive

In the far away field

I hear the sheep

 Long may winter sleep

 

© Fiona Cummings

   

DIARY OF POSITIVITY BY FIONA CUMMINGS


 Sunday was cold but at least dry. I went to some shops to buy so many little different silly things. I’m talking birthday cards, salad, a rug and flowers. Hahaha. Seriously. Like my blogs can be all over the place, as can my shopping list.

 

The rugs I saw were beautiful. But I was told that they would take two weeks to come to the shop. I mean, you can order from Amazon and have one the next day if you want. No wonder our shops are closing. Oh, get this though, one rug was £195, but if I quote wanted to take the one off the floor….  I could have it for £10, less. Hahaha, em, no!

Who would want to pay £185 for a rug that had been on the shop floor for however long? Had a coffee table on it on display four legs making marks in the rug, who knows whose shoes had been treading on it and if a child had put a sticky bit of paper from a sweet or an adult had spilled a cup of coffee over it? I don’t get that, why do furniture shops offer hot drinks?  Well another rug I loved oh I fell in love with that and the sofa that was being sold near it. But it was so unpractical for our dogs especially as one is cream. The sofa, which I don’t need as got one last year, is red suede. Oh, it was luxurious. The rug I wanted for our house, was so thick and heavy and it was all the warm colours reds, orange and caramels. I thought it would be beautiful as our walls are caramel, our fire breast wall has wall paper that is caramel same as the painted walls with outline of black flowers. Our fireplace is white marble with a polished black wood. Black piano and sofa and chairs. We have a cream TV unit and black shelving with my fairies, angels, elephants and other collections on. So, I have bright cushions to stand out on our sofa and chairs, so I thought a bright rug would look nice too.

Em.

Not at almost £400, it wouldn’t. especially because our rug in our lounge is a daytime dog bed. Haha, we have wooden floors but you can guarantee if one is to be sick, it will be on the rug. All the wood easy to clean, nope, let’s do it on my Mummy’s rug. So, I have always just bought a cheap rug from Amazon but firstly I don’t know what they look like or how they feel. But I came home the description of the rug I picked was multi coloured circles… what colours? How thick would it be? Not sure, but so far, I have been really lucky with rugs. They have looked really nice according to my Boy Wonder and friends, but I have always been conservative in my choice of pattern. Multi circles was never on my list but I’m feeling very daring these days and taking big risks. And, it was £50. So, if I have to change it in a year, so be it, but to pay five times that amount? If I didn’t have dogs, then I would have done, though still think its madness you have to wait two weeks for it to come, obviously from India. By boat. How can Amazon do it in one day or a few max? of course the one I have ordered is going to take three days, and I’m excited to see what on earth I have picked. If you can see, imagine ordering something like rug, bedding or clothes without seeing what they look like? Some may be saying now, I couldn’t, I wouldn’t. then what do you do for a rug, bedding, clothing? We have no choice sometimes.

 

It was really funny as I went to the shop with my GF and Hub. GF described the colours to us. And a woman came over to us and suggested that we may want the lift/elevator? If we do it’s in the corner. Hahahaha. Em, it’s me eyes that don’t work love, not my legs that are broken, well, maybe she saw me doing our marathon walk a couple of weeks ago. I needed a piggin lift then, I tell you….

 Over the weekend, I had a lovely chat by messenger with a very special person which really did make my weekend. And Sham came with a Chinese take away, she offered to give us some bless her, I was good and said no, plus I couldn’t take the poor babies dinner off her. Oh, but it smelled so good. I was trying to be good as had salad for dinner. But after that teasing fragrance, I had to spoil my goodness and had a bag of crisps and some malt loaf. Bad me.

 Today though, I walked some of it off. Only some.

 

It’s now Monday. I asked Alexa what the weather was like and she told me it was going to be cold and raining. I put my coat on and weatherproof shoes.

 It didn’t rain.

It was boiling.

I proceeded to tell everyone in the shop, in the chemist, and then the chip shop, oh, isn’t it boiling? Hahaha, none of them agreed. I got home dumped my bags and said to Hub who was or is, working from home today, it’s so hot? He said, and he’s always hot, no. I’m cold…. You can’t be, I exclaimed. He replied he was. Well, I must have been having a hot. He was laughing at me when I told him I was like a mad woman telling everyone that it was hot, and it all came with sound effects. Puffing and waving my hand in front of my face…

Oh, I am so uncool.

 

Hub actually took a lunch break something he never does when he works either from home or the office. A whole twenty minutes. We sat in our conservatory and enjoyed a lovely unhealthy lunch. But I walked to get it and its salad for dinner for me tonight. I’m going soon to cook for our Son, going to cook a huge pasta dish. It will give him a big dinner and he can take some for work tomorrow.

 

When Waggatail and I were walking today, oh, the smells of Spring were so good. The freshly cut grass and the beautiful blooms. So sweet this time of year. We passed the zoo but the monkeys must have been in for feeding time as it was so quiet. It was such a pleasant walk today. Even the chemist was a breeze today. They have so many shelves to get to the till, but Waggs walked me straight to the counter. And even brought me out to the door, rather than the floor to ceiling window, Hahah. Have you ever tried to get out of one of those?

As I said, I’m so uncool.

 

A day of appreciation. I don’t know how sad lonely or difficult life would be without my guide dog. Thank God for her and all who are involved in getting our dogs to us. And a day that I have had a lovely chat with a dear friend and messages from a much loved relative last night.

 

 Some quotes before I go, let’s turn to some habitually optimistic people who see the bright side of life.

 

“Pessimism leads to weakness, optimism to power.””

William James

 

” Be the change that you wish to see in the world.””

Mahatma Gandhi

 

Motivation comes from working on things we care about

Sheryl Sandberg

 

“Time gone by isn’t ours to recover, but our future is ours to win! ” Don’t you just love that? Isn’t that positive? We are in control Bloggets of our destiny, not in the big things but certainly in the little things that could lead to big things. If you are afraid to take that step, what will happen if you stand still? You will never know.

Saturday 27 April 2019

DIARY BY FIONA CUMMINGS


Good evening Bloggets. How are you all? Gosh it’s been so cold today here and it’s been raining though sunny. Really odd. I was out earlier and I was so cold when I got in, kind of like a damp to the bones cold.

 

 I have really bad eye pain today and yesterday. I feel like someone is kicking my eyeballs. They just feel bruised. The pain has gone into my head. Two full days I have had this. It can go and do one now.

 

A very happy birthday to Lisa and Ian. If it’s your, special day, best wishes to you too.

 

Something I was reading. If spiders worked together, they could theoretically eat all humans in just one year.

Nice… If they take me off the menu, they perhaps could do it in seven months?

 

OK, here’s a story, have you ever heard of the Milgram experiment? Well I hadn’t until today. It is a test to prove that everyday people can commit monstrous acts.  Gosh, well in the research, the Milgram polled before the experiment began   predicted an average of less than 2 per cent of test subjects could be induced to deliver a fatal shock to an unwilling participant. 26 out of the 40 people, that’s 65% went all the way to 250 volts.

All of them were willing to give the shocks to an unwilling subject in another room. All of the people raised some kind of objection during the test. But Milgram was shocked, pardon the pun, to learn that almost 2 thirds of people would kill a person with electricity, if a man in a white coat in a lab told them to.

 

The study showed that people would commit atrocities if they were given permission from someone in authority. compliance dropped to 20 per cent when the people were told to instruct by phone, rather than someone being physically in the room. It was or is, written that in the experiment, those who came from lower class or who had been involved with crime in the past were more likely to argue with their instructor in a white coat. But middle class would do everything the person in authority would ask of them as long as they were in the room.

 

Well I haven’t committed any crime and no way I would do that to anyone unless they were really really bad people and even then, I would feel so uncomfortable, but if they had hurt someone or an animal, yep, give me the wires.

 

My friend from school was reminding me the other day about when some of the kids used to get electric shock treatment at our dreadful boarding school. Yep, it went on in the eighties. There was a circle of kids. One got the shock but they all had to hold hands so it went around in the circle. If you left go, they would then give that person the shock the hardest. Evil people. I just don’t know how people from our school haven’t been jailed. I escaped the circle, but know of people who that happened to and much worse things went on than that. My Husbands school he witnessed a member of staff who would pour boiling water over a child’s arm and that person did it to a few lads that Hub knew. Well I have had electric shock treatment, when I was six in Russia, in the eye where I had to do it to myself, I can tell you, I only did it once, as I screamed so loud then they had to try to do it to me but they weren’t keen on that because they got the shock too.

 

When I think back to those days, my past, I feel so sad for that little girl, but it doesn’t seem like it’s me. I guess I have tried to detach myself from that person. I feel like I renew or shed my skin every few years. Off load. Haha. Thankfully there isn’t much shedding to do these days or for the past number of years.

 

Going back to the former Soviet Union, in the late sixties, so, before I went, in fact I wasn’t quite born in 1967 when the youth boom meant that a huge amount of people in Russia were under the age of 27. It was about fifty years, since the Russian revolution, young people in Russia attended college more than ever before. The Russian children read voraciously, listened to music by the Beatles and visited newly opened parks as well as took BBQ’s and picnics near the rivers and beaches. That relaxed happiness didn’t last long, by the 1980’s, a new wave of educated dissidents rallied together protesting against Soviet rule.

 

Having said that, in the 80’s, I loved Moscow. The people too.  And parks still were there just everything became more political. Gorki park was a vast place with open mikes where you would hear very serious Ruskey’s talking almost as if programmed to brainwash people, or influence the crowds. Then you would hear awful Russian war songs with men singing in really deep voices. As a child, I felt slightly intimidated but the hot summers and great people I knew, provided a comfort blanket and though I had times dealing with Russian mafia and the KGB, I still felt safer in Russia, than I did in England. But after Perestroika, when Russia sadly sold out to the West, I returned to the Motherland and really felt very unsafe. I wouldn’t want to go back there now.

 

Something else I was reading, about when in the UK we needed driving tests. I always would have thought that from day one of buying a car we would have to take a test like we do now days. But no, in 1903 the motor car act only requested people to register their names and vehicle details. No test was needed.

 

The first formal driving tests in the UK were taken by disabled drivers only. And the licences were only issued for a year. Everyone eventually had to take the driving test but not until 1935. The driving theory test was introduced in 1996. Gosh before reading about that, I would have guessed may be 2005?

 

Before getting to the car, the examiner will ask the person about to take their test, to read from about 20 metres, a driving plate. Hmm. Well, that is so funny as when I could see, I would have been able to do that. But when driving, I would have been in trouble. Haha. I do know of people who have RP though who still drive. Scary, no matter how good you can see. One lady I knew used to drive her children to school. She used to tell me she was fine, as long as she kept her eyes on the white line. As she couldn’t see anything other than that when moving. She did that for years. She thought it was OK as long as she didn’t drive at night.

 

In the eyesight test to drive, you get three chances to read the plate properly. Three? Why? Surely if you can’t read the first plate correctly, then alarm bells should start to ring?

Also, I know of so many people who passed their tests many years ago but have never been for an eye test since, how do they know they can see safely enough to continue driving? But I also know that if my Son for whatever reason had to quit driving, it would seriously mess with his mental health as he loves his car and loves driving.

 

Again, I have never been able to drive, so, I don’t miss it. There are times when I have car envy when I wish I could get in the car with Hub and just drive somewhere, but the feelings come and go. But if I could drive, and suddenly that is taken from me, then I would miss it as it would be life changing in a bigger way than what it is for me now where I have to walk or get a bus everywhere, or a taxi that costs loads, especially where we live.

  

It’s like who is more fortunate, someone like my Husband who has never seen, or me who had sight but lost it?

Personally, I think he is better off some days then I wonder though if I was luckier as I now have pictures in my head of what things look like, colours shapes people etc. the colour red to Hub is a word as if he is learning a foreign language, it means nothing to him. Personally, I can’t imagine not knowing things like that, but, same time, I would never want to go through that day when I had gone blind. Oh, my goodness. It was pure hell. Minutes went into hours to days weeks, years before I came to terms that I would never see again. Hub didn’t go through the grieving process and that process I can tell you was the worst thing I have ever gone through in my entire life and I have been to hell and back in life. But, if I was to live my life over again, and remembered everything I now know, then those times that time, wouldn’t be as bad. It doesn’t have to be as scary or life crushing as what I went through.

 

And now for new innovations for tech for 2019 if you are requiring assistive technology.

There is a company called The BraiBook, the mouse sized device, includes a single Braille cell and can be loaded with books in several formats.

Characters can be displayed in contracted or uncontracted Braille a cell at a time, and the speed can be controlled using a joystick. A headphone or speaker can be plugged in so the person reading can hear words as well. There are 22 cell machines available but the price of the above is about £400

A great toy to teach tiny children Braille is called the BrailleBuzz.   It’s for children between the age of 2 to 5. It’s shaped like a bumblebee it includes buttons to announce each Braille letter that is on the buttons. The children can also type Braille and there are sounds as well as speech.

It’s well under a hundred pounds or $99  

 

For older kids there is codeJumper. That is what it is, teaches coding.

 

Guide Connect  allows you to read and write emails read books and surf the internet.

It’s a Dolphin product and will cost about $800

 

Those of you who can see, you are all so lucky, look at how much we have to pay out to do just normal every day things that you do….

So, if people who can’t see don’t drive, they save a fortune? Haha, nope, for me to drive in a taxi for 2 miles, costs us £10.00

 

Well it’s late and my Husband is playing wild games with the dogs. Poor LF doesn’t know what to do but his big sister Waggatail is like a puppy. She is eight now going on 1. She is like a clockwork toy. Hub plays so rough with her. I hate it, but when I try to call Waggs, she won’t come then she takes her toys back to her Dad, so, she can get on with it. Haha. She has the most annoying toy that makes the worst high-pitched sound and if you squeeze it slowly, the sound lasts for ages. It drills through my skull. Hub thinks it’s hilarious.

It so isn’t. I keep putting that particular toy away but Hub finds it.

 

Well I can’t hear my voice on my lap top so I shall close for now.

 

 

 

  

 

  

   

Friday 26 April 2019

MY SISTER #PoetryByFionaCummings


MY SISTER

BY FIONA CUMMINGS

 

She’s beautiful

She is so bright

In the darkness

She is the light

She’s funny

Makes everyone laugh out loud

She certainly stands out in the crowd

She’s found a place in my heart

She makes me feel so incredibly proud

Our paths have crossed

The map I’ve found

Two hearts that beat as one

We share a past beyond my ability

Will she ever know

How much she means to me

So long I’ve missed her

She’s my little sister

 

© Fiona Cummings

 

Written for sisters

 

 

BIRTHDAY LOVE #PoetryByFionaCummings


BIRTHDAY LOVE

BY FIONA CUMMINGS

It’s your birthday and I wish I could give you a gift

I can tell you how much you have given me a lift

It’s your special day but I must keep away

But I hope that will change, one day

I feel so close to you, these words are so true

Waisted years

Such sad tears

I so badly want to hold you close

To give you a beautiful rose

A card to send

Kindness I intend

Love I have plenty

If ever you need me

 This is such a special day

Best wishes I send your way

Wanting to say

Have the best birthday

 

Thoughts for those who can’t be with loved ones on their birthday

 

MEXICAN MEMORIES AND MORE BY FIONA CUMMINGS


A quick blog as my emotions are all over the place. Firstly, today it was my friend from school’s funeral. Heartbreaking and such a waist of a good kind life. I’m furious. Angry with those who made it easier for him to take his life, so sad he didn’t realise just how much his friends and sister loves him and wanted him but sometimes that doesn’t make any difference if you feel it’s not worth living.

 

He was one of earths inspirations. And on a sad day like today, it’s also been a year since my lovely friend from school lost her much loved Husband. So sad that I have lost my friend and my other friend is hurting as adored her Husband, and then I was due to go out to a place I have always wanted to go, but that was cancelled because of the weather, but then we ended up going somewhere else, the local large designer shopping centre… a bit of a difference to where we were going to go, but hey, will wait until next September to go to the other place. Two emails I received today asked where I was wanting to go so badly, well when I tell you, you may think, oh my goodness. What a Nanna? Hahaha. It was the huge flower festival an hour and a half from where we live. This year’s theme is suburban. So, town. There are streets set out with phone boxes, letter box’s and cars but all made or full of flowers. There are sign posts with words from the suburban dictionary but, again, all made from blooms. So, many stalls selling beautiful baskets and flower displays and so many other items you can admire and, or, buy. It’s absolutely huge. I was hoping to get my friend a gift there for her birthday. They also sell garden gadgets and I guess many more things.

 

So, the three of us did ladies who shopped. And we did, well two of us did one kind of looked. I bought some summer slippers, we looked at some really nice handbags and jewellery from a shop from the American designer Kate Spade. Bless her, she took her life, last year. So sad.

 

My friend bought a beautiful bracelet from there gold, very thin chain with a bumble bee on. Also, in gold. Oh, I felt compelled to go to the Body Shop. No, not for a new body… gosh I wish it was that easy, it sells the best smelly things. I got a fantastic deal. A huge bottle of shower gel. With matching hand cream and body butter as well as small bath fizzes. Guess what fragrance?

 Tangerine. Oh, the smell is so beautiful.

 

We had a coffee at the chocolate shop and admired some lovely clothes, really feminine summer dresses in bright yellows my friend told me. We then went to a cheese and wine shop, my friend tasted I stood at the end where my other friend showed me something of interest, there were bath bombs with fragrances of gin and apple and peach and champagne and prosecco with mango and so on. Oh, I am going to have a great pamper session this weekend. A treat I am so looking forward to.

 

Hub is listening to the radio, one of his favourite authors is reading. He’s called

David Sedaris. I must say he is really funny. He also sounds very much like a lady. But he’s not, as I have read his synopsis of life and he was born a Son… a title in this day in age, we are going to lose. Son’s and daughters, girls and boys, ladies and gentlemen!!! One day we will be known as they, or it or a number…

 

All this week, my Son has been getting up from bed at half seven, leaving for work at half eight and not returning until 9 at night. He works overtime then goes straight to the gym. Gosh, every night. He is dedicated for sure.

 

Our shopping arrived tonight. I bought loads of fruit this week and salads. We have been eating salads a lot of late, I love them.

 

Sham came around and her and I talked until after 11 pm. Earlier our Son showed us a video that was made when he was a baby. Oh memories. My parents’ voices were or, are on there. My Son said he couldn’t believe how young I looked, hahaha, yep, that was when I was, young Son, also before the stresses of being a parent for over 20 years.

 

Gosh memories also about how challenging it was going to his sports day at school. So many people, no route, standing in a huge field without a path to guide me. Wondering if my Son was in that race, and then trying to guess if he came first, second or third? Or even last…. I remember how it wasn’t a case like what it was when I, was at school, where all the parents stood together and didn’t really move, my Sons school you almost covered the huge field moving from different sports. Not being able to cheer him on as didn’t know if he was racing or not, school days were just so painful as a parent who was quite newly blind and who just didn’t have confidence in those days. Always trying so hard not to get in the way of people or cause a scene. Just trying to blend in within the surroundings of a sighted world. Now, I just deal with the fact I’m blind and if people around me don’t like it, fine, let them jog on and that means I have the best friends who want to be with me for the person I am. My friends tell me I’m fun to be with and they love my company. Great as I love them too. And moreover, I never really feel in the way. When I first went blind for a few years, in fact five, I, just felt so ashamed, almost embarrassed. But now, whatever life is for living and my humour brain and tolerance towards others gets me through life.

 

So, what are you doing this weekend? The weather here isn’t looking good.  But we will try to do something. I’m really excited as we have a few theatre concerts planned over the next months. One person I booked tickets for yesterday, I’m going with my dear friend who I love to spend time with, I think she’s going just to go out with us and Hub is going because he knows how much I love this person not only her songs but her humour. And as a person. She is such a warm lady. My friends Husband has told me if I tell anyone he’s agreed to go, he will have to kill me. Hahahahaha. I sent him a text to tell him he needs to calm down as he’s getting too excited, and then when I managed to book tickets, I told him he will be able to sleep now, as I have the confirmation that the seats are booked. Hahaha.

 

I think my Boy Wonder is up at silly time tomorrow may be half six. He’s working from half seven. It’s his choice. He doesn’t have to work A, that early, or B, on a Saturday. But he is saving to buy a house.

 

Sham is working for the next seven weeks at weekends, so they won’t see each other much during day time over the summer. It’s not overtime, she just takes two days off during the week. Oh, she was making me laugh last night telling me funny stories about BW’s packing for her holiday, remember he secretly packed her things as she didn’t know they were going abroad? Well bless him, having said that, the things he took I do not have a clue how on earth he got all that in one tiny case?

 

I’m going to put all of my jumpers away for the winter. Even though it’s not hot yet, the only thing about summer clothing, there’s more ironing.

Oh, and you can’t hide in them!

 

I was reading today that Latin American countries hosted the happiest people in the world and have the less stress. I bet it’s something to do with the lovely weather and the amazing music. I love Latin American music and I have written before how when I used to travel, I loved it when we had tourists from Mexico, as they came with guitars and songs.

 

Wherever you are right now, I hope you have a song in your head and a smile upon your face. If it’s your birthday today sending a very happy birthday as for tomorrow, it’s the birthday of someone who is very special to me. I just wish I could hug her and give her a lovely gift. But she is in my heart and I hope she has a great day.

 

Don’t stress if it’s your birthday and you are getting older. As we get older, three things happen. Firstly, your memory goes, and I can’t remember the other two!

 

 

  

 

Wednesday 24 April 2019

ENGLISH v AMERICAN OUT AND ABOUT BY FIONA CUMMINGS


Good day Bloggets. It’s a beautiful day here wasn’t forecast, but there you go. Well I hope it stays nice for tomorrow again forecast isn’t promising but I’m out for the day with friends and it’s somewhere I have always wanted to go but more on that tomorrow. Thankfully Hub is working from home so I can leave my Waggatail as this place isn’t good for dogs she would be so fed up and the car I’m going in is tiny, no way it will accommodate my dog, even though she is small.  And it’s somewhere I haven’t been so don’t know the route so won’t be able to instruct her and she will get confused, so I shall be guided by one of my friends.

 

Today I got a Alice in Wonderland cake plate, oh, my trying to put it together? Wow, I’m sure it’s still not right, but it will have to do as now it looks rather stuck. It’s two plates high then a saucer and cup on the top. It’s so tall too! I don’t know why I put myself through the torture of buying fine china. Especially when I can’t put it away in my display unit to make it’s safe. I have far too much stuff… and though I have held off buying for a while, I couldn’t resist the cake plate. It came in so many fiddly bits. There was a piece of paper, but what good is that to me? And I guess it wouldn’t even be in English?

 

Speaking of English, well, kind of. I was talking with my American friends and a friend from Canada yesterday about how the way they speak, words they use are so different to the way English people talk? My friend was describing our friend’s new hairstyle saying she had bands…. Bands? What are they? Well translated we would say fringe. A fringe is something on the end, a band? Hahaha. Not sure how that makes sense, but obviously it does to our friends across the pond.

 

Like we say lift, they say elevator. Football = soccer. Petrol = gas. Rubbish = trash. Dustbin = trash can. Toilet = rest room. Postcode = zip code. Bill = check. Biscuits = cookies. Shop = store but sometimes a small place in America is still referred to as a shop. Torch = flashlight. Holiday = vacation. Post or post box = mail or mail box. Married = hitched. Injections = shots.

And there are different ways to spell too. I remember talking with the same friends I was talking about a rucksack; it took a while before I realised, they call that a backpack.

 With regards a bum bag? Well, let’s leave that one…

 

If you come to England as small as this country is, you will notice that there are so many different accents. Where I come from Northumberland, we still have pit talk. It’s a language on its own, that people who live in the same area sometimes won’t even understand unless you or your family member worked down the coalmines. My Dad called a table a chebble. I wished I had written down his words as now it’s diluted sadly even the way normal English words are said there, is pronounced another way. My home city of Newcastle a fifteen minute car journey, they speak so differently to what people spoke like in my village. So, no wonder by the time English got across the huge pond it changed a lot, but still we understand each other… and as for the spelling of some words? The way people in America spell, it’s so much easier and sometimes they spell just how it’s pronounced, that’s great, I remember once talking with my English tutor she said she wouldn’t like to change our spelling because it’s history and in all the great books, I said but wouldn’t it be easier for children to learn to spell? She replied, yes, but children have always learned so why change something that isn’t broken. I guess it’s like turning a beautiful castle into a shopping centre, or shopping mall.

 

I have to go to the shop later and I really don’t feel like it today. I should have gone this morning but had to wait in for my cake plate. I find if I don’t go first thing, I really struggle. It’s not like something easy. I have to let my dog out so she doesn’t mess when I’m working her. Then get a bag just in case she does. Then a treat so I can give her to say well done when we get to our destination. Then her leader and harness. And then the things I would do if I had sight, key and shoes. And all that is before I have to psych myself up telling myself I can do this. Even now I still can be walking along and my heart can start to beat faster than I would like. I can easily get myself into a state by overthinking the fact that I am out in the big bad world. The fact that I have to cross a very busy road. The fact I have to remember every single turn, where the steps are and will my dog take me to the door of where I need to be? Will there be any bins out on the path, will a car be parked on the path so I will have to go off kerb onto the road and back on again, because I have slightly detoured, will I be able to find my Barings again? Will there be an overhanging tree? If someone stops to talk with me, will I remember in my head, where I was and what section comes next? When I get to the shop, will there be an assistant to help me get what I need, or will I stand there looking like a fool, or at least feeling like one. Hopefully at the shop, they will still have the old-fashioned card machines as Hub and I have been caught out where it’s been a flat glass pad rather than the raised buttons. I have an iPhone and it’s flat, but it’s played out on screen like a keyboard of a lap top/typewriter also our iPhone speaks, where as the card machines don’t. normally it’s restaurants though that have those annoying flat screens. In most cases, thank goodness for contactless. I just wish they would make the money so you can pay more than £30.

 

Oh, my goodness, guess who’s returned back to hotel Fifi? Yep, old Bloggets may have guessed. A mouse. Always one. And last night, it was going crazy. Trying like mad to get from in between the wall and our kitchen cupboard. And that was after Hub had everything out of the cupboards and cleaned inside. He looked last night when it went quiet and there were no holes to let it in. but Boy Wonder Hub and myself were all around one cupboard listening to it and it wasn’t even afraid of us. It was determined it was getting into our cupboard. And I knocked on the door. I would have messed myself if it had answered. Hahah. But when I knocked, it still continued to try to get in. oh, gosh, I feel sick thinking about it. Shamrock came around and we were all sitting having a nice chat when suddenly the dam thing went across the sitting room wall. Inside of it. But the noise, oh, my, it’s not a rat, it’s far too small. Sham was petrified. Me too. Boy Wonder is a vegan so won’t set a trap so Hub set a humane one but this morning it was empty. Let’s see if it comes back tonight. I hate them. We are opposite a field and we have neighbours who love to feed the birds all that combined with some factories half a mile behind our house, is a great combination for Mickey and his family.

 

Our house is detached, so, why our house? I know my neighbour five doors away in her garden had a rat in her compost heap. It used to pop out during the day to look at her. Hahahaha. She has three dogs too and one is a Jack Russell who are great at catching at least mice. That rat wasn’t bothered, it was a rock-hard rat with attitude.

 

OK, I must dash and clean the house then get ready to go out.

 Take care please, smile and I shall be back to tell you about my day out later.

 

Tuesday 23 April 2019

CHEEKY ME BY FIONA CUMMINGS


 Well Hub and I have had a very productive day. We have been spring cleaning…. Later than normal, but it’s done and the house feels larger. Haha. Not sure why, I only threw out one black bag of rubbish, but it smells so nice and I have a tall shelf of fie shelves in our bedroom with so many cosmetics on and it got to the point that I was overwhelmed by the bottles etc so never used them. Well today along with the app on my phone I tried to sort out everything. Some things had to be thrown out as they had gone off. Goodness knows how long they had been there. Shame really. I so badly want to use all the nice things I have but it’s so hard to know what is what. I have checked everything out with my phone, and I know now, but in a couple of days?

It’s things like body moisturiser’s shower gels and bath stuff… Hub has one shelf to my four.

 

 Hub cooked his batch of turkey stew yesterday and has put it in foil cartons to frees. The dogs have been driven crazy by the smell of it…. They have had a small share of turkey though. It must taste so lovely compared to their food of small biscuit like shapes of dry meat.

 

We think crackers are good for us, most people pick crackers when they are on a diet rather than bread, but I was reading today that a typical cracker is made from refined grains and fat, salt and sugar. Then preservatives are added so the crackers can sit on the shelf of your shop. And did you know that there is such a thing as fake fibre? Shocking, but look out for these ingredients next time  fibre. Chicory root, maltodextrin and if I have spelled this correctly, polydextrose!

 

My Son has had his first day back at work today after a lovely long holiday. Where he went, Barcelona, sounds so lovely and there was so much to eat for him being a vegan. I wish our country would catch up when it comes to dining out. There are a few places you can go to, but they are select and to eat out as a family, it’s hard as you either find a place where it specialises in vegan food so doesn’t sell vegetarian or meat, or you visit places that sells meat and may be one or two choices in veg food but not vegan. But where he went in Barcelona, almost everywhere sold vegan food he never struggled.

 

In our news, Islamic state claims responsibility for the horrific murders in Sri Lanka, well, I’m personally disgusted by the murderers. All those poor innocent people and their families. Wars have never worked and those who caused this, I’m sure they are in for a shock when they learn that they don’t go to the paradise they think they will, as what kind of God would welcome such people?

 

President Trump is coming to the UK in June, I really don’t know why we needed to announce this as now it’s costing us something like 18 million pounds for security. Well if he just arrived, half or more of the idiots that will cause trouble, won’t have time to organise their disruption or destruction.

 

It’s comforting to see how many people in Ireland are being supportive towards the poor person who was shot by the so-called Real IRA. Thank goodness most of the people in Ireland are wanting peace.

It’s been 500 years since the death of Leonardo Da Vinci. He was born in 1452 in a Tuscan village. He died in France, in 1519, he was well known as an artist but was an engineer, thinker and inventor. Some say he predicted the future. As he drew flying machines.

Reading about him today, he was so very talented and brainy.

 

Oh, I have been naughty, thrown things out today, but, added to the Fifi household. Hmm. Haven’t told Hub yet, haha, I can’t be the kind of person not to, or say I have had this ages love, as we have the same bank account so he knows everything I spend. He never minds if it’s something for me like clothes make up, but when it comes to things, more things for the house? Well he will just say in his school teacher manner, darling, where are we going to put this? And I will answer? I will find a place. Then I will panic and think, heck, where? So, what I have ordered today is to go with the cheeky items I ordered last month. I got a milk jug and matching sugar dish and this time, today I ordered the matching cake stand. It’s Alice in wonderland theme. Knowing my luck, that will be the name on the box, it won’t have like I’m thinking pictures from the book. gosh imagine if it’s plain white? I would be gutted. I want rabbits and top hats. Hahaha.

 

Well must dash now and make mine and our Sons dinner. Until later. Xxxx

 

 

 

 

Monday 22 April 2019

DIARY OF THE SUNSHINE AND REGRETS BY FIONA CUMMINGS


 We have had a lovely relaxing day just some housework and family time. I have pealed so many vegetables I have a blister on my finger…. Honestly, what am I like? I have never had a blister with pealing veg. but there was a load. Hub was making turkey stew and I needed veg for our dinner tonight.

 

Oh, dinner was delicious. Around the table a proper family meal. I love it when we are together eating, conversations and good food. We had the big door open and the birds serenaded us and the early evening sun still found its way through the windows. I bought some lilies last Saturday, and they still are looking beautiful and smell even better! I keep them on my dining table as it’s glass, so hopefully easier to remove the stains that sometimes lilies cause when they start to fall.

 

  Watching a program earlier they were talking about children getting pocket money. Saying that kids today got on average a thousand pounds per year. One presenter said she paid her children £10, to wash the dishes. £10? I need that job…. Another lady said that when she was a child, she had to do things like dish washing etc as a chore, and wouldn’t expect to get paid for it. The first lady said that when she was a child, she had to deliver newspapers to get pocket money. But she went on to say to prove she really isn’t in touch with the real world of today. “Imagine if we asked kids today to deliver papers? They wouldn’t do it.””

 Em, excuse me honey, but who do you think delivers newspapers today? Children, just like in years gone by, the same lady obviously is from a rich family, went on to say she delivered the papers with her Mum driving her where she needed to be…. And what about a bike or backpack? Oh, my word, talk about a different world. The same person said how her children are home schooled. Gosh, I hope they, learn about life.

 

 Thought for today. Regrets. I was talking with someone today who has a huge regret. But what is regret? Something you now, wished you had done way back or not too long ago in your life? at the time, you had a choice, now you know it was the wrong decision. But there is nothing you can do about your past apart from make things better for now and your future. No matter how much you regret, and I’m sure more people have regrets than have feelings of impenitence, but at the end of the day, what is done is done, but what can you do, is the question.

 

There are people in my life I am so pleased to have said goodbye to, but there are people I have never really said hello to but dream to meet one day. Those people I could have met so many years ago, but life told me not to. Now I’m older and I hope wiser, I need to put things right and embrace what could be rather than what could have been.

 

Regrets only can eat us up. They can affect our life but what we try to do at least about those situations, can shape our future and turn on lights, open those curtains and let in the sun for all involved.

 

Stop worrying about what if and think about what will and what when!

 

 

Sunday 21 April 2019

PEACE DIARY BY FIONA CUMMINGS


 It was a lovely day with lovely people. We took a walk along a riverbank, well it was a flat path, that is a great thing to start with, no walls and mountains to climbed like yesterday. Oh, it was so nice, peaceful. The odd boat went by and trains chuggered by on a near track, whilst the wildlife sounded to our pleasure. Beautiful smells of flowers filled the air, and pure air that was a lovely gift. We walked for about four may be five miles. Then we rewarded ourselves by calling in to a fantastic restaurant where we sat in the garden as it was so hot. There is a train line that runs just past the garden. The restaurant is a train that is static. You can stay there overnight too. When it’s not so nice, you can sit in the carriage’s but we opted for the garden.

 

Nearby cockerels could be heard and there were other animals close to us too.

 

I had the best lime and lemonade to drink.

 

We had some Greek food and just chilled with great conversation all afternoon. Our dogs as always were brilliant. The staff at the restaurant were really lovely. All in all, it was a great day.

 

And now home, our dogs have been fed, the sun is still out, and I’m exhausted. I have had my vitamin D this weekend for sure. Also, my exercise. Mind you, a person close to my heart did a bike ride yesterday for 25 miles, she puts me to shame with her fitness.

 

It’s been a great night for TV. Hub and I have eaten our Easter eggs and our Son had his vegan egg, he loved it but he has one more to go. we have watched some great programs including my fave drama The Durrells, Victoria and now the cream the exquisite Michael BublĂ©

Oh my, he still hasn’t asked me for a cheeky kiss, obviously too busy right now, but I’m patient if you are reading this Mr B.

Hehehehehe

 

Hub cooked his turkey it’s driving the dogs crazy. I’m sure they will get some though.

 

In our news this Easter Sunday, Sri Lanka, my heart goes out to all who have lost people they care about. It’s shocking what has happened there. 207 people have been murdered as their churches and hotels got attacked. A few people have been arrested, so that is a good thing, but for those who lost their Lives!

 

 Our queen is 93 today. Wow, what an age.

Gosh, will we live until we are 90 plus? Hub and I joke about what we will be like in old age. I guess the same as we ar now as I don’t feel the age I am, in fact I feel the same as I did when I was 35. Only I ache more and I’m much stiffer…

 

Well Dear Bloggets, one thing before I go.


© Fiona Cummings