MY DIARY

Good day Bloggets.  I hope I find you well? My boy hating College. Received three texts from him today saying how much he is “Hating” his time there.

It’s a shame as he only has six months to go then he is finished his first year and at least he will have one qualification. But if he hates it so much, well, what can I say? The worry is what is left for him to do?

The trouble is, he doesn’t really know what he wants to do. He doesn’t have a realistic idea.

God, his Father thinks I have it really easy, if only he knew what I have been through over the past sixteen years? I had no help from the x with anything I taught him to walk, talk, read and write, his manners, and he is impeccable out of the house. Everyone remarks how well mannered he is, what went wrong in the house, I’m not too sure.

Having said that, bless him, he cooked me a tea last night, trying to get me to eat. I have lived on Christmas cake and Pringles for ten days. God, I mean it, our shopping is due and I am starting to eat healthy food. The thing is, my Husband bought me so much chocolate for Christmas, I have not even opened half what he got me, because I really don’t want to eat it.

I hope this year will be the year I can change my appalling diet.

Every year, I say I want to lose weight and every year, I fail. Well, this year is different. This year I need to eat for my heart and health.

So Bloggets, I shall give you a weekly report on how I am doing starting from today.

Talking about today. It is fifteen years since my darling Mum died. I shall never get over it. People say it gets easier, but for me, it hasn’t so far. I still miss her so much it really hurts. I just want her to walk through my front door and life to be complete. If I had my parents back, I would have the love I need also I want her to see Hub and I together, though I am sure wherever she is in her world, she knows we are a couple as I bet she is one of the angels who gave me such strength five years ago this month, to look at a website for our old school reunion. Gave me the strength to post my now Husband that crucial email.

And from next month, it’s been five years since we met for the first time.

I for sure in that time was being pushed. And though my parents really loved my x, they knew I married him for a few reasons, one of them, being I knew he would be a great Son in law, and he really was.

Five years ago, it was my turn in life to be me. To be free.

I thank whoever brought Hub and I together every day of my life, and our two old friends from school have a part in that too.

God, our canary, Irish you know, is really in full song. It’s like he is so excited. How can he be so happy? What does he have in life?

Bless him. At least Teen cleaned out his cage the other day, at last. He is swinging and singing. Canary that is, not teen, hahaha.

Hub working in the office at home today until later then he is off to work at our local blind society.

OK, must dash for now but more later. With love and remember, if you get an open door in life, walk through it. You may never know again, when a door will open for you. Go through every one. X