Good evening Bloggets we have just been listening to the
News at Ten. Gosh, there is evil in the world, and to the extreme. America’s
next President? Who will that be I wonder? The news tonight looks like Donald
Trump. I don’t know enough about him to comment, other than a few people on my
face book page are not impressed with him, but the alternative? They all look a
bit dodgy to me.
Microcephaly, that is a really scary
condition. Babies born with small heads. If they survive they have treatments
every day fed through a tube. They have learning difficulties.
The condition is caused in the womb when their brain doesn’t
grow also during infancy. This condition has been around always so why is it in
the news? Because they say that the
latest epidemic comes from mosquitoes.
They, say… I do
wonder just like I wondered when ebola first came out
Our daughter goes on her school trip tomorrow for ten days. Let’s
hope she gets back happy and has had a great time.
Well, that was last night today is now…. I’m really feeling
sad today. It has been a week since my Dad in law and Brother in law came for
dinner. Gosh that was a tough night I don’t want to repeat. It was wonderful at
first, homely and just right, my brother in law is so lovely and we get on so
very well, but when he left? Oh boy. It was really like someone so close to our
hearts had died. My Husband went in on himself and was in so much shock. He
said he had the same pain as he had when his Mum had died. It was silly as my
brother in law has gone to another country to live he is still alive and he may
end up happier where he is. The kind part of me wants him to be happier but the
selfish part wants him not to like it and come back home. But come home to perhaps
a different area and make a new life where he will be happier than he has ever
been before. We miss him so much. Even teen last night said. “Mum it’s awful. I
can’t text my Uncle anymore.” He coped last week by getting his guitar out that
is when we know he is sad. I tried all night last week to be upbeat doing my
best acting. But the lump in my throat grew as big as a hardboiled egg. Hub and
I really really miss him. As I said last week, it’s not as if it’s France or
Germany or anywhere like close to home, its blooming Australia.
We will phone Dad tonight to make sure he is OK. It’s so awkward
him being so far away too. In the car, nothing is a trouble 45 minutes but for us to get there,
a taxi, then train then as I also said our brother used to pick us up, Hub said
we could get a taxi from the train station to Dads house and we can, but we are
talking two hours and about £90 there and back, Hub even asked our taxi company
how much it would be to go directly there and it would be £180 which is OK, but not like we can do that every
other weekend and that is how much we wish we could see him to make sure he is
OK. All we can do for now is phone him. He will miss our brother so much. Our
other brother is in Scotland for a year too so again far away. All that leaves
is our Dads Daughter….. I’m saying nothing.
So it’s my birthday coming up. Do I feel like celebrating?
Nope. If I could forget it that would be good. I don’t want to be another year
older and I’m wiser but wiser in a negative way. I have lost a relative this
year who isn’t dead but to me may as well be. I don’t want anything to do with
her. I’m wiser because I have learned what she is really like. She took me to a
high tower and dropped me. But when I landed, and it was a hard fall, I was
broken, I got up and brushed myself down and was able to wake up from the
darkness and see the light. See what she really was all about.
I have a friend with RP the eye disease I have and reading
between the lines, she is on her last stages of having sight. Gosh, I feel for
her. It’s odd. The symptoms are all there but we can’t for some reason
comprehend the reality of it all and put it down to something else. It’s like
having a window with blinds and curtains. Firstly the window gets dusty foggy,
you clean your window, glasses. Not understanding why they are so dirty. Then
the blind is pulled down. You keep trying to pull it back up but it won’t go.
Then the curtains start to close. Even then you pull them back trying to open
them. Then you are so exhausted and have to face what has really happened.
Blindness.
Someone in a RP group I’m in asked the question.
“If there was treatment for RP, would you miss it?”
Oh I reacted by suggesting that the person who asked such a
question, must have very good sight.
Also I said if there is a treatment or cure for RP, those
who would miss it, say no to the treatment. Simple right? As someone else said.
“No, I wouldn’t miss the bruises bumps and not being able to
see my children.”
Well I wouldn’t miss not being able to read letters, see my
Son and Husband go on holiday whenever where ever we want not have to plan a
journey like a huge adventure and not always a good adventure as most journeys
are so stressful. I mean for get getting to the train station, getting on and
off a train is hard enough. The gap, both my husband and I have fallen down the
gap at some stage in our lives. For me it was just last year. Our lovely LC Hubs last guide dog fell in
between the train and platform too. It really hurts and to hear your poor dog
in pain as they have to be lifted out is awful. With Hubs dog, the doors closed
too early Long Chops was out of the train and Hub was about to step off. He
still had a hold of her lead she apparently panic and as a passenger said she
the dog turned around to see Hub with the closed doors and tried to get back to
him, poor baby. She was a tough little angel though and was back on trains the
next day. At first she was a bit wary but then was OK. Gosh, I miss that girl.
She was the most amazing guide dog in the world.
By the way, remember we were fund raising to name a Guide
dog puppy after our girl LC AKA Suki? Well, we have thanks to you all raised
the money. The final amount has to be put on the Just giving page.
Hub has just told me he has took some time off work so we
have some time together.
Teen has a new chapter in his life, so that is or could be
very good.
Wherever you are in the world I wish you all a good day or
night, depending on the time where you are. I’m late at writing my blog tonight
because I have been working, writing and it’s been the most difficult work I
have ever done as far as writing is concerned. To be honest it’s really wound me up today I
need time to write some poetry and because it’s Valentine’s day coming up in
the UK, I have had a lot of poetry to write for people and it’s all been of
course love poems. So I’m all loved out. Smile. Need to get some dark poems
written, hey? Later gators. X
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