GOD LOVES DEATH?

Well, teen and I didn’t get to 24 hours, without a row. Sadly, he spent one hour on the phone to a person that stupid fool sent him to see. With regards to his education. I just wish he would stop listening to absolute rubbish from people who have not got a clue? They are messing with a young lads head and mind and crushing him in the meanwhile. He is listening to everyone but us. It’s crazy, even my x is annoyed about the other side of teens life. I can’t say on here what was said from him, but it did make me wonder, if he, can see what they are doing, how can’t teen? We think we have found a gardener at last. Hub said he has someone lined up. Our weeds are taking over. Our dogs have all been naughty today. Little Wagg is really defiant and even LC would not do as she was told, but when BB ignored me, it was just too much. It’s been a hard day back to the norm. So many, too many phone calls and stress in the house. I so would love somewhere to run away sometimes. Just to be on my own. I hate it when Hub is away, I get incredibly lonely, but there are times when real life catches up on me and I just can’t take much more. Another friend of mine is very ill right now, as is her Husband. This makes me really sad. I’m afraid to loss them to death. They are a lot older than me and both, from fit to failing, in a matter of weeks. It’s the speed of the Drs Here. Three weeks ago, my friend felt so very ill. She made an appointment with the Doctor. He said to come back after a week. She did then, he said wait for five days then get a blood test. She did. There was nothing wrong, so after still feeling ill, they made an appointment for her to have another blood test after another week. She did and four days later, today, she saw the Doctor again. He said she was lacking in vitamin D? What? This is why she is dizzy and feels like she is going to faint? This is why her voice has aged ten years over the past month? Well, now she has to wait another two weeks, before going back to the Drs and chatting about it all again. I would not care, but she is never in the house. She is always in the garden. If she feels no better in two weeks, she then has to wait for an appointment with the hospital. I just wonder what ever happened to Doctors knowing their stuff. Really, GP’s do not know anything now. I remember going to see a Doctor about a suspicious mole I had, she took a book, from her drawer. To look up my mole. Too many specialists now and not enough know it all Doctors. My friend was telling me the other day a story about her local card shop. She frequents it most months and this time, there were new girls on. She waited for assistance in the shop for ages and then knowing she was being ignored, she shouted Excuse me; please will someone be able to help me to pick a card? Well, the person behind the till was rude to her and at last someone came. She said to my friend “You stand there and I will go and get your card. What kind do you want? My friend said “No I will have to come with you, it’s a sympathy card and I know what I would like, but you will have if you don’t mind to read the cards for me. She was not pleasant about it, but took her and her attitude was awful. She then picked a card and told my friend that would do. My friend asked for it to be read out. Well there were lots wrong with it, Firstly there were too many flowery words and the person it was for, was not a close friend or relative, but an acquaintance so just a basic card was required. Then my friend asked what was on the front and it had a cross. My friend didn’t want a religious card either. It was too much effort for that woman to help her out for a minute. Its things like that which put a lot of people off the so called blind world/way of life. Thank Goodness my friend was strong enough to stick up for herself but as she rightly said what if she had been a new blind person? To be made to feel a fool, then as though you are in the way is just awful. I was saying to Hub yesterday, how absolutely selfish some people are. I mean, he has two brothers and a Father, we never see them. For months we have struggled with the garden to say the least, his Father wins competitions for his fruit, vegetables and flowers he grows, and he can’t be bothered to come and snip some weeds for us? Also his other two brothers both have vegetable patches, so they are keen gardeners. Who do they think does our garden? Who do they think does our decorating? Hangs our pictures up and does our shopping? Well, at the end of the day, we do. Hub and I. But it makes us sad to know just how much we are, on our own. My Son had his exam results the other day. It was all over the news about result day, an yet not one person from the family, asked how he did. Not even my aunt. It’s as though we could die, and how long would it take before we would be found? I was looking at a website for blind people the other day and how many people across the world feel like me. There were so many cries for help. I had to stop reading as just wanted to help them and I already have for now a lot of people and only have so much I can do. All I can say is whoever is reading this, please, think about others who may require help? A lot of people are rather selfish and think, oh, I’m not asking as I will be bothered forever once I start. Of course, no one expects you to do a full time job, but a section of your heart would be nice, then one day when you may need help, perhaps someone will find a part of their heart to help you when you need it? When my Yam was in Mexico on holiday, her Husband had just come out of hospital. We were worried about him, there was a very kind family, who invited him to dinner, then came to see him another day. Just two days, but us knowing that, made us, feel peaceful, knowing there was some kindness in the world given out to our DD/English living in America stolen Dad. Haha. This trouble in Syria has me really worried, as if America and the UK strike, it for sure will be world war three and that will be the end of the world as we know it. One of our x MP’s the other day said an interesting thing. OK, we are up in arms about chemicals being used to harm and kill people, so what does bombing their country do? We will still kill people. My husband said it’s like watching someone in a playground being bullied and doing nothing. I said of course one to one, I would fight for that bullied person, but, if I was told by doing so, it will cause gangs to be created; I would have to walk away. Of course it’s barbaric what is going on there, as is it is in so many other countries. There is so much anger in the world now which doesn’t end in words or simple actions. There is open gun fair and chemicals being used. For what? I just wish we could keep out of other countries and use our soldiers to keep our country safe from crime. Anger breeds anger. A person online yesterday said a fascinating thing. One day the world will become so intelligent, as we evolve, we will learn that wars never work out and we can, all live in peace. Just in time for the world to end with our crazy way of past life. Just in time for a couple of people to visit mars to start life all over again. Like Adam and Eve. Interesting. So what can we all do to be in peace? Use chemicals on our own people? Bomb people/countries? Shoot people who are Mothers, Fathers, Grand parents, Sons daughters, new born babies and innocent animals? Or, disable all weapons of destruction, seek out the evil people who love wars/fighting, and love our neighbours. Believe me, I’m not innocent. I have so much anger in me and I’m known as fiery Fi. But, I would not do any of the above to anyone and I always try to help people when I can and if I don’t like a place, I don’t re visit. I turn the other cheek. I remove that person who has caused pain from my life, by losing contact, not killing. The people who still want death, arrest them make camps for them and walk away. Let them die in their nasty world. So you shoot someone, afterwards, how do you feel? Where are you now in the world? Jail? Still fighting? Where are the flowers in your life? Where is the laughter? Where is the love? Do you really think your God is happy with you killing someone? Really?