A true story by Catherine Moore
"Watch out! You nearly broad sided that car!"
My father yelled at me. "Can't you do anything right?
Those words hurt worse than blows. I turned my head toward the
elderly man in the seat beside me, daring me to challenge him. A lump
rose in my throat as I averted my eyes. I wasn't prepared for another battle.
"I saw the car, Dad . Please don't yell at me when I'm
driving.."
My voice was measured and steady,
sounding far calmer than I really felt.
Dad glared at me, then turned away and settled back.
At home I left Dad in front of the television and went outside to collect my
thoughts..... dark, heavy clouds hung in the air with a promise of rain. The
rumble of distant thunder seemed to echo my inner turmoil. What could I do
about him?
Dad had been a lumberjack in Washington and Oregon.
He had enjoyed being outdoors and had reveled in pitting his strength against
the forces of nature. He had entered grueling lumberjack competitions, and had
placed often. The shelves in his house were filled with trophies that attested
to his prowess.
The years marched on relentlessly. The first time he couldn't
lift a heavy log, he joked about it; but later that same day I saw him outside
alone, straining to lift it.. He became irritable
whenever
anyone teased him about his advancing age, or when
he
couldn't do something he had done as a younger man.
Four days after his sixty-seventh birthday, he had a heart
attack. An ambulance sped him to the hospital while a paramedic administered
CPR to keep blood and oxygen flowing.
At the hospital, Dad was
rushed into an operating room. He was lucky; he survived. But something
inside Dad died.
His zest for life was gone. He obstinately refused to follow doctor's
orders. Suggestions and offers of help were turned aside with sarcasm and
insults. The number of visitors thinned, then finally stopped altogether. Dad
was left alone.
My husband, Dick, and I asked Dad to come live with us on our
small farm. We hoped the fresh air and rustic
atmosphere would help him adjust.
Within a week after he
moved in, I regretted the invitation. It seemed nothing was satisfactory. He
criticized everything I did. I became frustrated and moody. Soon I was taking
my pent-up anger out on Dick. We began to bicker and argue.
Alarmed, Dick sought out our pastor and explained the situation.
The clergyman set up weekly counseling appointments for us. At the close of
each session he prayed, asking God to soothe Dad's troubled mind.
But the months wore on and God was silent.
Something had to be done and it was up to me to do it.
The next day I sat down with the phone book and methodically
called each of the mental health clinics listed in the Yellow Pages. I
explained my problem to each of the sympathetic voices that answered in vain.
Just when I was giving up hope, one of the voices
suddenly exclaimed, "I just read something that might help you! Let
me go get the article."
I listened as she read. The article described a remarkable study
done at a nursing home. All of the patients were under treatment for chronic
depression. Yet their attitudes had proved
dramatically when
they were given responsibility for a dog.
I drove to the animal shelter that afternoon. After I filled out
a questionnaire, a uniformed officer led me to the kennels. The odor of
disinfectant stung my nostrils as I moved down the row of pens Each contained
five to seven dogs. Long-haired dogs, curly-haired dogs, black dogs, spotted
dogs all jumped up, trying to reach me. I studied each one but rejected one
after the other for various reasons too big, too small, too much hair. As I
neared the last pen a dog in the shadows of the far corner struggled to his
feet, walked to the front of the
run and sat down. It was a pointer, one of the dog world's aristocrats. But
this was a caricature of the breed.
Years had etched his
face and muzzle with shades of gray. His hip bones jutted out in lopsided triangles.
But it was his eyes that caught and held my attention. Calm and clear, they
beheld me unwaveringly.
I pointed to the dog. "Can you tell me about him?"
The officer looked, then shook his head in puzzlement.
"He's a funny one. Appeared out of nowhere and sat in front of the gate. We
brought him in, figuring someone would be right down to claim him. That was two
weeks ago and we've heard nothing. His time is up tomorrow." He
gestured helplessly.
As the words sank in I turned
to the man in horror. "You mean you're going to kill him?"
"Ma'am," he said gently, "that's our policy.
We don't have room for every unclaimed dog."
I looked at the pointer again. The calm brown eyes awaited my
decision. "I'll take him," I said. I drove home with the dog on the
front seat beside me.. When I reached the house I honked the horn
twice.
I was helping my prize out of the car when
Dad shuffled
onto the front porch.... "Ta-da! Look what I got for you, Dad !" I
said excitedly.
Dad looked, then wrinkled his face in disgust. "If I had
wanted a dog I would have gotten one. And I would have picked out a better
specimen than that bag of bones. Keep it! I don't want it" Dad waved his
arm scornfully and turned back toward the house.
Anger rose inside me.. It squeezed together my throat muscles and
pounded into my temples. "You'd better get used to him, Dad. He's
staying!"
Dad ignored me.. "Did you hear me, Dad
?" I screamed. At those
words Dad whirled angrily, his hands clenched at his sides, his eyes narrowed
and blazing with hate. We stood glaring at each other like duelists, when
suddenly the pointer pulled free from my grasp. He wobbled toward my dad and
sat down in front of him. Then slowly, carefully, he raised his paw..
Dad's lower jaw trembled as he stared at the uplifted paw confusion
replaced the anger in his eyes. The pointer waited patiently. Then Dad was on
his knees hugging the animal.
It was the beginning of
a warm and intimate friendship.
Dad named the pointer
Cheyenne. Together he and Cheyenne
explored the community.
They spent long hours walking down dusty lanes.
They spent reflective moments on the banks of streams, angling
for tasty trout.
They even started to attend
Sunday services together,
Dad sitting in a pew and
Cheyenne lying quietly at his feet.
Dad and Cheyenne were inseparable throughout the next three
years.
Dad's bitterness faded, and he and Cheyenne
made many friends.
Then late one night I was startled to
feel Cheyenne's cold nose
burrowing through our bed
covers.
He had never before come into our bedroom at
night. I
woke Dick, put on my robe and ran into my
father's room.
Dad lay in his bed, his face
serene.
But his spirit had left quietly sometime
during the night.
Two days later my shock and grief deepened when I
discovered
Cheyenne lying dead beside Dad's bed. I wrapped his
still form
in the rag rug he had slept on. As Dick and I buried
him near a
favorite fishing hole, I silently thanked the dog
for the help he
had given me in restoring Dad's peace of mind.
The morning of Dad's funeral dawned overcast and dreary.
This day looks like the way I feel, I thought, as I walked
down
the aisle to the pews reserved for family.
I was surprised to see the many friends Dad and Cheyenne
had
made filling the church. The pastor began his
eulogy.
It was a tribute to both Dad and the dog who
had changed his life.
And then the pastor turned to Hebrews 13:2.
"Do not neglect to show hospitality to strangers,
for by this some have entertained angels without knowing
it."
"I've often thanked God for sending that angel," he
said.
For me, the past dropped into place, completing a puzzle
that
I had not seen before: the sympathetic voice that
had just read
the right article... Cheyenne 's unexpected
appearance at the animal shelter,
his calm acceptance and complete devotion to my father… and the
proximity
of their deaths. And suddenly I understood.
I knew that God had answered my prayers after all.
Life is too short for drama or petty things, so laugh hard,
love truly and forgive quickly. Live While You Are Alive.
Forgive now those who made you cry. You might not get a second
time.
“Thank you to my friend for sending this to me. He too is an
angel. Love and hugs DD.
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