Good afternoon Bloggets. I’m waiting to go to my friend’s
house, but it’s too early I’m not due till half two. So far today has not been
a good one, but life goes on. As for the weather, it started off really wet but
now it’s so sunny. Mild too.
I seriously could write a book on a couple of my friends and
let me tell you the story would be totally different to what I write now. Gosh
some people are rather shocking and I just don’t get humans. We live in a very
complex world. You know when someone needs help, but you can’t get to them?
They are crying out for your help, but there is a huge block and if you even
touch the block, your life will be seriously in trouble. So, I can’t get to who
needs me and I don’t like this. I don’t like it at all. It’s kind of a triangle with a twist. I can’t
really say anything, other than I am being played, but I am on top of the awful
game as I know what is going on. I just right now am ignoring the
situation. I have never been one for
burying my head in the sand when it comes to helping others. I am very out
spoken for others, not myself, but for my friends I will say it how it is, but
because two people are my friends, but they are married, I am stuck. It’s a
very difficult situation that can’t even be spoken about to one of the friends.
And before you think it, it’s not an affair, well, it may be but that isn’t the
bad situation. So, what to do? Just have to sit back and let the badness pile
up before me and try to detach myself, my feelings and thoughts from their
challenges. It’s weak of me but strong as I said I don’t keep my mouth shut
normally so having to is proven to show what strength I do have.
Gosh, reading todays blogs, I guess you can see there is a
lot of mystery in my life this week. There is also some big debates going on
and I’m fed up of it. Some people just seem to have an easy life. Is this
because they don’t care? I think so. They don’t care and are not bothered. How
to be like this? I must train myself to be cold. Hub said it wouldn’t suit me,
but to be honest, for me it would be a relief.
To my friend’s house I head. I am saying nothing about the situation
I have found myself in, as really it’s nothing to do with anyone other than the
couple involved and that is what I am going to tell myself and a coffee and a
change of environment is what I need right now.
Let’s hope I come back to my lovely new rug and LF won’t
have eaten it? My knee is in agony today
but it’s not a long walk. About six minutes. My next blog will be an escape. An
escape from reality. Can’t wait till my Hub is home tonight. Missed him today.
I know he said he had a few trials to see to at work this week so because I
know he won’t be having an easy day, kind of unsettles me. And as I put away
the vacuum today, turned on the dish washer again, cleaned the kitchen and did
a general tidy, I suddenly thought, this really is my life for the next God
willing thirty years plus. Unless a miracle comes my way. X
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