Hi Bloggets. Again, what a 24 hours. Now our daughter isn’t
coming to stay on Saturday, I think a third party involved, Hub is really
really hurt, so he went to bed not wanting to talk last night… Not at all my fault
and I won’t be blamed. I have calmed him down, as I have tried to help our girl
by blooming texts, Hub didn’t want me to talk or to pass the phone to him… I
understand why he is hurt, I really do. He wanted it to be a special day,
seeing her University all day, then off to the theatre and overnight at ours
then next day to lunch. It was all arranged. He has been like a Cheshire cat
all week looking forward to it. For those who don’t know what that is, the
Cheshire cat is a fictional tabby cat created by Lewis Carroll in Alice’s
adventures of wonderland.
Well, today teen sulked off to college saying he can’t
understand how I forgive our girl, but won’t have anything to do with “Daughter
in law?” So he’s married her? He said and I quote
“You have a perfect daughter in law, and you don’t want to
know her?” Well, I guess one out of two is right?
No matter what happens in our house, Teen has to involve his
g. Not sure how that works for him, but for us, it doesn’t really. She has
nothing to do with our oldest girl and never will have, so I’m not sure what’s
going on in his head, but the atmosphere in this place is really getting me
down. I can’t do right for doing wrong.
Poor LC even is getting blamed, as Hub left her as he went
to work today. Bless her, what did she do? Hahaha.
Oh and to top today, soon I must do the delights of our
glorious dog run… Lovely jubley
I had a great sleep last night; I think I slept for about
four hours woke up for a short time then off to sleep again. Not at all like
me, but I can get used to it?
I’m in my lovely conservatory. The only thing is, the birds
are dropping berries on the roof.
Well, I hope they are berries?
This morning there was a bird singing outside at about
seven. I have never heard a bird sing quite like it. Wow, it was amazing. Oh
every time I hear a wonderful sound, I think of my friends DD and Yam in
America, their garden was a perfect place of peaceful pleasure.
I have spoken of this before, but when Hub was in their pod
chair, gently swinging under a tree, I was sitting on a garden seat, Teen who
was about 13 at the time, was sitting on the steps to the house, with Yam,
drinking a cool drink, as the heat was talking with us that day, the birds were
singing and the smell of grass was beautiful. I in the distance could hear the
golfers at the bottom of their garden, bottom being a long way away. They had a
blooming field. Then the rustle of the
sound of deer, coming to feast on what was put out for them in large tubs. A
family of deer.
Gosh, to bring back those days? Life was perfect. Away from all
the trouble of the real world. How fortunate we were to experience that and I
will never forget it.
The bird this morning lasted for half an hour only. Really
odd. In our avenue of all sorts, we have parrots, I told you when we first
moved in, we thought a pervert lived in the street, as every time I went out,
there was a wolf whistle, like a man to a woman… My Son was ready to punch
whoever was purving on his Mum. Hehehe. How times have changed?
Well, he’s doing his first lesson of maths today, see how
long he lasts? For his sake, for any future job, he needs to stick at it. For
me, it doesn’t really matter; I must stop stressing and think, well, if he
doesn’t get a good job, so what? Not my problem. Why is it we want the very
best for our kids, at the end of the day, it matters not to us, but only to
them…
I told you I was back in touch with my brother and Niece?
They are furious with me that I wrote what I did about them in my blogs… Who
can blame them? No one wants to hear badly about their loved ones, no one! I’m
just glad they are OK and well. God, my brother and I used to be so close when
we were young, I always remember he was my big brother and I adored him as for
my Niece, the day she married her lovely Husband, I cried so much, not because
I was sad, but because I knew she was marrying someone she really loved and he
loved her, to see a happy couple to me was so wonderful. I knew I would never
be happy with my choice, then some years later, my new pack of cards were
delivered, opened by breaking the seal and first card out was the King of
hearts…
I have always felt like I don’t belong to anyone or anything
and it’s hard to live with that. I have always felt like I am in the way of
others. I am a total screw up as my x used to say, and he is right. But now I
have met my husband, number two, but one in my soul, he too is a screw up, so
together we fit into a box of tools, just need to hide from the hammer, not to
mention the driver?
My neighbour is back today, I’ve missed her. I can’t wait to
tell her how quiet the street was when she was away? Hehehe. Do you remember my
story on Birmingham? When she ate the spider? Well, not just any old spider,
not even a M & S spider, but a blooming tarantula. All for a free ticket
into a fantastic museum in London. Well, at last yesterday, she visited there,
so I hope it was worth the meal she had to endure?
No spiders on the menu tonight, boys are having salmon. For
me? Not sure… Same old same old.
OK, must dash for now, but remember,
After climbing up a great hill, one only finds there are many more great hills to
climb
Nelson Mandela
My translation of that is life is hard, but keep going as
one day you may meet with someone on that hill who will change your life
forever.
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