Good day Bloggets. This house is so silent an yet so noisy.
Already I’m making no sense. I mean, apart from the voice on my lap top there
are no English words being used nothing spoken, but the sound of my canary
singing the most tuneful song and my dogs four paws running all over the living
room floor tap tap tapping along with the noisiest toy she could find today,
the washing machine, dish washer and outside the rain, winds and trucks, an yet
there is no one to talk to or listen to. So noise can be heard an yet silence
can be lonely all in the same room.
It wasn’t a good day yesterday. My Son still feels the need to
shout, swear and totally disrespect us. His mouth got carried away with him
last night and every time he does this, I wonder how my ex would cope with such
a rebellion teenager?
I kind of hoped that when he turned eighteen, he would grow
up enough to realise he only gets one set of parents. One Mum for sure and
treat her in the manner she deserves. I know my ex never treat his Mother like
this, but having said that, teen’s anger issues stem from him. As he also had
the worst language on him and a temper from hell. But he was great to his
elders. Unlike my son, who is ok with others, in fact sometimes wonderful, but
to me and those who have cared about him for years? I’m so tired of it all. He
just makes the house so unpleasant when he is like that. I wish the alien who
removed my loving caring Son and replaced him with this dreadful moody hormonal
disrespectful individual would get bored and return things how they used to be?
Two and a half years ago. He was happy, perfect loving and just a normal teen. Yes
we had issues, but nothing at all in comparison
I have said it before and I will say it again. Kids today
are the worst ever in any generation. I know some of you will now be saying
every parent says that, but no, really, something has gone incredibly wrong. I
have so many friends with kids the same age and they are all alike. Teen is the
better of most of them but my word, last night? All kicked off because I threw
his poison powder of so called some kind of muscle builder that he adds milk to
and drinks. It’s so called natural, yep, that is why it’s powder and manufactured?
He bought it in October and I’m sure he told me he had six months before it
went off. He said now nine. Well, October to now is seven months. So I thought
it was off also he doesn’t use it half as much. And I’m sick to death of the
huge bag left all over the place. I’m also very against it. I know body
builders now will say its fine, but people used to say Tabaco was ok and now
people are saying weed is OK to smoke. Hmm. That’s a matter of option too. I
know of a lot of people who have done that or doing it and from highly intelligent
people now they are almost like zombies. A few moved on to stronger drugs and
others are totally paranoid.
People say the odd joint doesn’t do any harm. Well, what if
that odd joint was required more oftern and why do you need a joint in the
first place? Relaxes you? Then take a bath or a massage, lie in the sun or
listen to some calming music? Makes you
feel happy? Well, what happens when it wears off? You are still going to have
the same problems. Makes you sleep better? Again going back to my first point. It’s
natural; it grows, yep, as does tobacco.
Anyway, leaving that subject now, teen is out, but due in
soon, well, I think he is, not even going to bother asking. I just know he is
not pleasant right now and both Hub and I know why, but why he takes it out on
us? I just wish he would realise who is
in the wrong here, and because I threw out something of his that I thought was
off, did I really deserve such disgusting language? Filth. And a lack of intelligence,
something he has abundance of. He is a very clever young lad, just one thing he
is a dummy over and he won’t let that go. Once he does, he can return to a
happy person. Though unless that thing moves on and makes herself happier too,
the two of them will be unhappy for life.
Yeah, some would ask why I write about it in such a way?
Well, I said last year, gloves are off now and why the heck should I let an
eighteen year old girl tell me what I can write? After the hell she has put my son
through. And will do his entire life
from now on. My ex says he gets on well with it, but if he only knew the half
of what she is like and capable of?
Changing the subject now entirely. It’s pouring again with
rain. You know that kind of dirty rain? It’s not warm either! Something that sighted people just take for
granted. They need something at the shops. You can go any time. Sometimes guide
dog users have to go out at particular times. We don’t always choose. For
example, no way I would go out when the monkeys are due to return home after
their schooling, as little bodies running all over the place is a nightmare for
me. So between quarter to three and
four, no way I would go out and in the morning, between half eight and half
nine, nope. Well, we can’t pick times to go to the shops. We can’t jump in a
car if it’s raining. So we walk, wet dogs and pouring rain on us. I have a
friend who yesterday went in the rain to the shops and had to put her hood up on
her coat. So this is a nightmare for VIP’s as that makes us not only blind but
half deaf. It’s awful. We need our
hearing to get our balance as well as know where we are. Our dogs are aids but we
have to be totally alert.
How lucky those with sight are to be able to do the simplest
of things, and they don’t even know it.
Well, because of the rain, no gardener again today, so this
will be week six. As for my window cleaner? Still waiting. I guess they could
be locked up somewhere. Hahaha, I can’t think of any other reason why they have
not been here for now five months. Much longer and we won’t need to close the
blinds in the bedrooms. You won’t be able to see through them at all……
Well, a healthy
dinner tonight. Stuffed peppers with savoury rice going to make those now. New
potatoes and green salad. There will be nothing the matter when teen finds out
there is no meat for dinner. Well, he used to be a vegetarian; he can bring
back memories, right? And I think it’s so bad to eat meat every day. Lately we
have been buying a lot of fish. Personally, I find it awful, as even when I ate
meat, I hated fish, but Hub loves it and it goes with his health kick that he
is still on. He has let it slip a little of late, but still doing well. I am
not too sure I like him quite so thin. He used to have lovely chunky Daddy
hands. Hahaha. Well, you know when he held your hand, you felt so safe, now it’s
like holding a strangers hand. And believe me; I know more about that than I
should, as I have done it oftern enough, without meaning to.
OK, I feel like some positive energy please today, so I will
try to send you some too through some quotations.
The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be
seen or even touched; they must be felt with the heart.
Hellen Keller
If you are lost in life, walk in a different direction
Fiona Cummings
We know what we are, but know not what we may be
William Shakespeare
Nothing is impossible. The word itself says “I’m possible
Audrey Hepburn
Try to be a rainbow in someone’s cloud
Maya Angelou
Change your thoughts and you change your world
Norman Vincent Peale
It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see
the light.
Aristotle Onassis
Believe you can and you are half way there
Theodore Roosevelt
If opportunity doesn’t knock, get a doorbell
Fiona Cummings
There are two ways to spread light, be the candle or the
mirror that reflects it.
Edith Wharton
Whoever is happy will make others happy too
Anne Frank
Make yourself think positive and positivity will be the last
thing on your mind
Fiona Cummings
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