Uselessness is a motion or feeling at least that can only leave someone feeling desperately depressed. To not feel wanted. Not to be excepted in our world or others’ lives. To be different. Well, at least feel different to those around you.
To wake up each day without a purpose. To want to talk with someone but there is no one there as no one wants to spend time with you. To find yourself in a room and not know what to say. Being awkward around others. To never have achieved anything. To feel so unworthy. To wish you had never been born.
Gosh, that was a couple of painful, powerful paragraph, there are people out there who live with the word useless running through their veins every breath they take, and each day of their wasteful lives.
Some may experience this emotion at least once in their life, or once a month, but for others who it’s every minute occurrence, can anything be done about it?
If you are able to look in the mirror, do so, if you can’t see, stand up and Annalise yourself. Are you a bad person? If you say yes, why? What have you done? Is your heart poisoned and are your thoughts wicket? I bet there not. In fact, I’m sure they won’t be!
Life for certain isn’t a piece of cake. And people do take the biscuit out of some of us. But we don’t have to be crushed into crumbs or be eaten up by the teeth of torture. Those who do this can be easily dropped from our lives. Those who make you feel like this, hold your head up walk up to them pick them up and drop them, even if it is in your mind only, but turn your mind into reality. Trust me, you will feel so much stronger and better about yourself.
At one point in my life, in fact most of my life I was with people who made me feel like the above. I was in a hole and there was no getting out of it.
I can tell you the best feeling is finding the strength to stand up for yourself. For those who make you feel very low, worthless sad alone bullied and so on, by you getting rid of them in your life, how will that be bad for you? It will give you power that you never thought was possible and some of those people will probably come back to you with respect and admiration. If you want them back of course, you may find your new way, of life, is a better one. New doors will open for you. How dare anyone call you that? Who do they think they are? Who has the right to put you down? They don’t that is for sure. Stamp on them and move on. You will learn that you are worth more than you have ever thought because you are not getting knocked down flat by the nasty brigade. You will get stronger when you learn the no word. In the UK, we call it being a mug. Don’t be anyone’s mug. My Husband was one for years, thankfully he had his education and his work to remind him he was worth so much and when he met me again after too long, I told him each day how much we needed him. Loved him and wanted to be with him. He too has got rid of the rubbish and we are a team. You could be a team, but start off with yourself. Do it, don’t wait. Hang around people who make you laugh, smile and feel good well at least who don’t make you want to hide.
For you dear Rosie. And everyone like you. X
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