Meet our new little fella.

                

OPEN MIND GONE TOO FAR?

Good morning Bloggets. It’s pouring with rain and Hub has just left the building. Haha. Really I am shocked, no way I would go out in that but he is determined that he is going to qualify tomorrow and the route he will do he has only done once until today so he needs the practice. With his almost white dog and the rain, it’s not going to be good. As for his poor trainer? Bless her, she never complains. I will have a nice warm cup of coffee for her on her return. I can tell you that the Little Fella is doing so well. Tomorrow I hope they both will qualify and I hope my Son will be able to put a picture on here, but nailing him down to do anything for more than one minute? May be a challenge.  

 

Our Son has a long drive home from work today in this dangerous weather too. His boss has asked him to stay on another month but teen said no. At first it was meant to be for two months that turned into three now they want four? Well, it’s already cost him his insurance. He went over the five thousand miles he was allowed to go. He has one now that allows six thousand and he is almost at that already. Then what will he do?  I hope scrap his car and just live local until he can afford a newer car. One that isn’t a death trap. He will work across our road almost when he is finished his training but his boss wants him there where he is now, I think full time to take over the roll he has been training for. If not for the distance, then he would, but two hours driving per day for a kid is too much especially when like today he had to be up at five and won’t be home until half five. He has a long shift today. He hasn’t had a holiday since July. But he is due one next week. Not sure how much is going to be a break for him though as he has to go up north. His father has told him what to buy him for Christmas so he has to take that. And it is going to cost teen £100, plus the petrol to get there and back. Means all this week he is working for nothing.

 

Gosh, we almost moved to Australia some years ago. We were three weeks off going. Long story short, we stayed to the huge disappointment of teen and myself. Mind you, if we had have gone there, we wouldn’t have moved here and I love it here. I can’t believe it, this will be our forth Christmas in our house. I thought the day we left Northumberland I would never feel at home, but I do here, as at home as one can after a childhood at boarding school.

 

Out of the small group of friends from our school days, we are close friends or is that, allies? There are six of us who see each other regularly and I would say that all but perhaps one will be friends for life.

 

So Northumberland v Australia? Ha, we don’t have seven of the most dangerous creatures that are seven out of ten in Northumberland, unlike Au, but the change for us all was welcoming. Not sure how teen would have seen his Father though. It would have been a scary time but we would have made friends and learned how to adapt to the new lifestyle. The size of the country did put me in fear. Especially as Hub was to cover the whole of Australia with his job. He had a gut instinct and three weeks before moving there he pulled the plug. Gosh he got some stick from Teen and myself. Now on reflection, do I wish we had still gone? Well, if we had we wouldn’t have moved here and I would not have made such lovely friends also we wouldn’t see our besties Trix Like and Hanz, JB and Trace and this would have been awful, but teen wouldn’t have met the woman from hell of a girlfriend when he was fifteen until now. Once again she is trying to get close as she knows she made a huge error in her summer decisions. 

 

Sometimes I would love it if we could sit back and watch like a parallel screen of another life. So it’s us still but the decision we didn’t take has been taken by us but our double if you know what I mean? So now I would watch the screen and listen to my voice talking about what it is like living in Australia. I would introduce you to my new friends if I had made any that is, but I’m sure we would as they are a friendly bunch.  As for Olga in Russia, hmm. That is an interesting one. As her and I would still be talking though we wouldn’t see each other the same. I would have still had the image of her and her Son who I still love and always will. The image I learned about last year.

 

Oh, my brother and family well, we wouldn’t be in touch like we are now. Teen would he be working if so doing what? Would he have been eaten by a shark? I must say, our innocent stunning coasts in the north east are bitter cold, but there were no summer threats of swimming there.

 

Now my brother in law and his partner are moving out there, what will happen? Will we ever see them again? It is at the other end of the world. I can’t even imagine travelling so far by aeroplane when we went to America, I thought I would die being up in the air so long, but there was such a pleasure at the other end waiting. Our dear Yam and DD. With whom they introduced us to and the life they showed us has had a huge effect on our lives and will forever.

 

Talking with teen he said he will never ever forget his time in America because of Yam and DD.  Because of his time with Chuck and on the ranch. That family feeling we will never forget. Making memories that will last forever was so special and I don’t even think they relies just what an impact they had on our lives. And will have forever.

 

If I hadn’t have been reunited with Hub thanks to Jan who organised the reunion, and for sure a divine intervention, we wouldn’t have got to America. Not to be introduced to such special people. Funny how our lives can just be switched on and off like the TV. Are we the entertainment for aliens? If so, what channel am I? Hehehe. Don’t answer? Cheeky?

 

It’s all about what corner to take and when. I do believe our lives are map out for us. Gosh, until seven years ago, whoever was in charge of my map was a pretty cruel person or thing. I had forty years of hell. Forty years of fear feeling alone and lost though I had such love from my parents. I spent little time with them as was away at a very horrid school and on my holidays spent time abroad in hospitals. Just searching for that cure for my eyesight.

 

There is another channel you see. If I didn’t go to Russia for all of those years, I wouldn’t have met some amazingly famous people including our queen and a spiritual God in my opinion. That is Muhammad Ali and so many other famous people who I will always remember. I had some incredible times memories things that just shouldn’t have happened to little normal me… But, when it comes to normal life, normal living, gosh, well, I would have gone to the very good school where only brilliant exam results were expected of the pupils, this would have lead me onto University and a hopeful job. Or a career. A totally different me I guess. Gosh what would I have been like? I think I would have gone down the road of psychology. So I would hope to help others, whereas now? I need the help haha haha. I could be a case study. I tell you when I did my counselling course; most of the students did need help. I guess that makes a great counsellor, if one has had a challenging life? Whereas telling that to those teaching you how to counsel, won’t agree. They like you to have a clear mind. I can see both ways. How can one empathise when one hasn’t lived? And how can the counsellor be opening minded if they are faced with a situation similar to theirs? Hmm.

 

I can always look back and say what if, but it’s good to look forward and ask when?

 

I guess you never know your future. You can plan but your plan isn’t in your control. You can steer your car but the wheels may have other ideas.

 

I don’t know what has got into me this week. I’m so rambling I just hope I don’t lose my Bloggets by doing so? Tomorrow’s homework is to go back to shorter blogs and strait to the point. I guess the past few days have been an inside to my mind. A very odd place to be. A true case study for those who are intrigued by the mind for sure.

 

The short an yet what seemed to be forever six months when I lost my eyesight then my Dad then my Mum, I went a little crazy. Who wouldn’t? I was scared out of my brain. I had my baby to look after. How was I as a newly blinded person to do this? I couldn’t see how to do his bottles to measure them and I had no one to help. To change nappies? It was a nightmare. As well as that I had Charles Bonnet syndrome and that was so frightening. But I didn’t understand it I had never heard of it at the time.  When you know you are blind, you have your one year old child in your arms and a man steps out in front of you? Oh, never ever will I forget those days.

I didn’t have anyone to talk with. I didn’t have the internet. It was a few years after the most shocking day of my life when I learned of something that scrambled my mind and always will. Those days were hell. And now?  I am moving on though scarred. People say scars heal now days. I think they may be there forever but, I’m learning to deal with the pain of them. And two years later, yet more damaging pain, but now, again, all is calm as far as tragedy but it leaves you waiting for it to happen. Just waiting. How to be positive? Well, I count my blessings now. I have a husband who loves me and cares and a Son I adore as well as great friends and my close family. I can step out of that front door though some days are more difficult than others.

 

Gosh, said too much again. One thing I can tell you. Through these blogs I receive some amazing emails and messages in other ways. One Blogget I am so proud of right now I won’t say his name but he will know who he is. I offered him some advice and I never thought he would take any notice. Not only he did that but he did so much more. I hope he can maintain his wings. Keep flying my bird of India.

 

Right, said too much gone too far time to go and before I do, a funny thing I read today online. Here it is.

 

The quickest way to double your money is to fold it over and put it in your pocket.    

 

NIGHTY NIGHT

Well, where to begin. I still blame the antibiotics. OK. I haven’t had any for three days, but I bet they are still in my system? Tonight checking the time, Hub due home and I couldn’t smell the dinner cooking in the oven. All was explained when I went to check on it and learned I hadn’t put it in. There it was looking all uncooked on the top of the stove.

Dinner was a little late. Haha.

 

Teen came in from work and went straight to bed. He’s still there. It’s well after seven.

 

Our dogs are going crazy. They are fighting over the same toy. You should hear the noise? As for my rug? Forget it.

 

I’m waiting for a toy from Amazon, only it’s not from there it’s from the US. I didn’t know this when I ordered it. I have been told it will arrive between the 7^th of December, gone. And the wait for it? 16^th of January. Well it’s for our furry ones from Santa, now, how do I explain to Waggs and LF, that Santa has been delayed? Hmm? So I hope it comes sooner rather than later.

 

I wonder if Donald Trump will be bringing it. Oh boy, he is in our news. I’m keeping very quiet on that subject.

 

So that was then and this is now.

The wind is wild tonight. Its half ten. Teen got up after sleeping for four hours after work. Ate and ran. He is out now just. He is up at five in the morning again. I just don’t get teens. Is his bed done? Nope, still in the garage. He is doing ten and a half hours at work tomorrow so I doubt it will get done then either.

 

OK, time to put the house to sleep. All the lights outside need turning off. The tree lights and the lights in my vase as well as the garland on my mantelpiece. Time I do that and lock up, Hub lets the beastie bunch out and then it will be eleven. Hub is training in the morning and working mid-morning. He took one and a half hours to get home tonight. Today, he learned how to get to the cinema. A funny story, we are trying to get a crossing put on our evil road. And one of the small roads, used to have a beeping crossing. Not now, the council have removed it….. I got excited and said perhaps they were going to put it on our road? Haha. I mean, why else would they remove a button? To save money they must have done that, right? Here’s hoping.

 

Nighty night for now.

DIARY OF EVERYTHING

Good morning Bloggets. A bed frame arrived for teen. It’s a double bed. It’s in the garage and the garage smells lovely of wood. Now, how to get that upstairs? Well, so much work first to do. He has to take apart his older bed. Note I said older? Its two years old but it’s a single. He wanted a double for Christmas. I told him that single. Double they are all the same length. He says he can lie corner to corner. See, he is too tall. Well, I think that is the reason he wants a double bed?

 

Now just waiting for the mattress. Then the fun shall begin how to place the single bed somewhere and make room for the double. Oh, not to mention how he will put it together? We had drawer gate not long ago. Those drawers drove me crazy. He did it in the end though, good on him. Mind you, there is a bit of wood, a long bit, in his robe. Where is that from? I stupidly asked, knowing it was from his drawers. He answered, oh, my drawers, but it’s not needed…. Haha? O

K

That is obviously why they sent it. That expensive wood that dressed expensive wood. All five feet of it!

 

Well let’s hope we don’t have 6 feet two inches of planks of wood after this is put together? A lot of work to do firstly though, a cleaning the teen room job. Over to him. As he is at work today and is most days, this bed thing may take a while.

 

 Hub did some training with the Little Fella today from home. He did the route to our cinema and my fave eatery. Only trouble was, crossing that evil road. That will so scare me. Especially with a young dog.  I knew that our old Long Chops would keep Hub safe and because of that, I would be safe as I would follow. But the new pup, he is a baby at the end of the day and he and I don’t have a connection as yet. He is rather aloof. Hahaha. Though so cute. My little Wagga loves him, but she is a bit of a girl, she tends to like all the boys. Oh, reminds me, remember we looked after a stunning dog some weeks ago? Oh he was beautiful. When he left us I was broken. It was like losing our LC again. As he looked so much like her and so loving like her too. Well, yesterday he qualified with his new owner. He came from a sad background where his Mum died. He has now gone to a new lady and gets a coastal free run every morning. He has a great life.

 

I tried to put a photograph on here last night of our new fella, and my angel eyes Terry, my friend told me it was a white box and black background. Not sure what happened there will try to do it again tonight, thing is, I don’t have a clue how to do pictures, I wish I did then I would post more. For my friends who are blind I guess they will at this point be saying no? No. as photos can be frustrating if you can’t see them. Just another reminder you are blind. Unless the picture is described. I would of course do this, mind you; the photo we have received was taken at work with Hub so I would have to ask him what was in the background. OK, I’m rambling today, sorry. Not really woke up. Such a funny 24 hours.

 

My IPod as you know broke, teen kindly took it to our town and they fixed it. Well, I was so excited last night as I knew I had my pod back. Well, it needed updating firstly then I had to enter passwords into everything. And, I couldn’t remember all of the passwords. Hahahah so by the time I did that, there was notification that it needed updating and whilst it was getting that done, I couldn’t use it. Well, let me tell you the stress of Christmas shopping online for groceries? I put an order in two weeks ago for our grocery delivery. The closest date I could get to the big day was the 20^th. That is far too early. So I have been trying to get another slot as they are so full there are none. Last night, I decided to change my slot and hope that some new dates would be added since I last looked. Just as I did that, the update came on and my screen went quiet. So all night I was like, oh, ok, so now I have said I don’t want the old slot on the 20^th, and there are no slots on the 24^th like I hoped for. And now what? Have my Christmas shopping delivered on the blooming tenth of December? Hahheheheh. Stressed? I wasn’t until Hub learned of my error. Long story short, got my old slot back and will just wait until my provider tells me by email like last year, there are some new slots become available. Hmm. They did do that last year and guess how much they charged? £10. I normally pay £1.

 

My Niece was due today but once again wasn’t able to make it. We will laugh about this when we are old biddies in our rocking chairs. As she isn’t that much younger than me. Every time she says she is coming, one of her children is ill or her car is rushed to hospital. One day bless her, she will get here.

 

Oh must remind my brother I gave him one of his Christmas presents and I did my usual thing of being green and environmentally friendly, by recycling a box from last Christmas. Hahheheheh. As I handed it to my Sister in law to put in her car. I asked her, what was on the box? She read, proline filled chocolates. Well, I can tell you as I told her, please don’t pass the gift on, as its not chocolates in the box. Smile.

 

I told you Bloggets before but some of the New Bloggets may not have read this, my first year with my darling Hub, his much missed Mum came to visit us to exchange gifts for Christmas. I proudly handed over a large bag with a label on it. Well, it felt new, but obviously Fifi Blogget had been green again. She read the label out loud. It was a bag from my friend from the previous year which read who it was from and who it was to.

My ex and myself. Heheheheh Thankfully she laughed.  As I went red. Luckily I had taken the gift from the previous year out of it though.

 

Please don’t think I have given my brother a tatty old chocolate box, haha. It’s actually beautiful. Round, very posh box with a ribbon on the lid as though to pull the lid open. Come to think about it, I am sure it was my friend Julie now who bought us the chocolates.

 

This morning already I have washed my downstairs toilet and dusted. Cleaned the kitchen and wrote a press release and made a phone call for work. I have had a request for a poem today to be written. It’s a sad one, for a funeral. My kind of poetry. I have had so many weddings to do of late. Far too much happiness going on there for me…… Smile.

 

OK. I shall go for now as really, I feel like I am talking and talking today and not much is coming out of my brain and onto the screen. I guess I just love to chat with my Bloggets. Oh, before I go, OK, I’m off again. Guess what, we are just going to miss out on 100,000 views before the New Year. I need three thousand views to get there. That would be amazing, but I think we will just, miss out, unless you help me to share some blogs? If you can that would be great and we would have some new Bloggets in our ever-growing family. So please feel free to share and remember you can comment on here or email me at

visionsforfuture@googlemail.com

 

Right, I’m really going now, before I think of something else I need to tell you. With love. X

SUCH A COOL PARENT (Fiona Cummings )

 I’m being a rebel. My Hub is due home from work and his dinner isn’t on the table. Thankfully unlike my ex he won’t be bothered. It’s almost cooked but I am in no hurry to serve. I’m so anxious about my IPod. Teen took it to our town to try to get it fixed. I miss it so much. I do my shopping and everything on that. Waiting for a call from teen to see if it has been fixed. Knowing my luck nope!

 

The shop closes in twenty minutes. How far away is teen from it and did he remember a receipt? I don’t want it there overnight.

 

Teen is shopping and coffeeing with his friend. A nice lad. A guy from a wealthy background. An yet to talk with him he is as normal as me….. God help him.

 

Every time the lad comes to the house, I’m like an clown. I don’t know what it is. No wonder my Son meets his friends at the end of the drive. Hahaha. So I let the lad in, I wasn’t aware he was coming. So I was in a fluster. I had been cooking cauliflower. You know how that stinks the house out? I hadn’t cleaned the very messy floors. And as I rushed into the kitchen telling Quinton to take a seat, I was so in a hurry to open the kitchen window, I fell over the open dish washer. I’m waiting for a delivery so if you don’t answer in a second, they drive off. So I was like a spider on speed. My legs were everywhere I screamed and said in front of Mr. Prim and proper with the Father who earns over £200,000 per year and has a mansion worth two million

“Oh, bugger hell!”

Well, as I leaped over the open door landing just before the cooker, the house went silent. I guess it could have been worse? Oh, it got better, em. You know when you so badly want to be a cool parent and your kids friends turn up and you are wearing your comfy Nanna clothes? Yep, that was me. To top it all, I was wearing the same awful outfit I had on the last time he came. Hahheheheh. As teen left the house, Quinton told him he wasn’t wearing his shoes. So, OK, let it go Fi, say nothing.

Oh no. No can do.

 

“Oh, better than leaving without his trousers?”

Oh God.

 

Hub due home soon and little fella will have this place looking like a tip again. I got a picture of him today now I have to work out how to download, upload, and offload. Whatever gets it on here?

 

Waggs has spent the day in her bed. Have to go out later on tomorrow so she should be OK for then? As yesterday she walked and walked and walked as well as ran. She’s shattered.

 

My eldest Niece is coming tomorrow morning as is the new bed for teen. That will look lovely. First time my Niece has seen my house, welcome, with a tiny porch and a six foot mattress and planks in the entrance.

 

Later Gators with love. X